Tuesday, March 20, 2007
live a little
Life can be so good at times, and other times it can feel like there's always something not quite right. God is just so complex, and I have been trying to figure Him out, and I'm failing miserably, I am trying so hard just to accept Him for what he is but that is so hard you wouldn't believe! I've been told by a good friend that my confusion will pass, that I'll reach a point where I realise I can't be without God, and this is all part of growing up, I sure hope so? I have a great boyfriend, I'm loving my time at Uni, I've got some fantastic friends, and right now at this moment I feel quite blessed to have these things, just wondering if you'll make me complete God?
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
remember me?
Yes, yes, thankyou Callum..! It has been quite a while since I posted, and when I say I haven't really had chance, thinking about it, I don't think I have! And I'm sorry to disappoint but I don't have time now either! Got 4 exams this week, so I'd best got off and revise!
Thursday, November 16, 2006
stop! think!
I want you to do this with an open mind..
Firstly, I want you to answer these questions for yourself (below)..
After this, I want you to think about how someone of a very different view might answer this question..
Now the important bit, I want you to really try and understand how that other view, which is so very different to yours, could be believable to that person? How they could be as passionate about their answer as you are? Why are you so passionate about your view? What has influenced you? What do you think could have influenced the other persons view?
Ok, here goes..
Is there a God?
Was Jesus just a man?
Was the world made?
Is God present in the world?
Does God answer prayer?
I think that this is a really useful exercise to do, I am required to do this a lot in my theology course, and I have found it a very good thing. Trying to get my head around other peoples views is a very difficult thing to do when you have had something drummed into you from very early on and I feel its a very good thing to actually think about why we hold such strong views on certain things..just a thought..
Firstly, I want you to answer these questions for yourself (below)..
After this, I want you to think about how someone of a very different view might answer this question..
Now the important bit, I want you to really try and understand how that other view, which is so very different to yours, could be believable to that person? How they could be as passionate about their answer as you are? Why are you so passionate about your view? What has influenced you? What do you think could have influenced the other persons view?
Ok, here goes..
Is there a God?
Was Jesus just a man?
Was the world made?
Is God present in the world?
Does God answer prayer?
I think that this is a really useful exercise to do, I am required to do this a lot in my theology course, and I have found it a very good thing. Trying to get my head around other peoples views is a very difficult thing to do when you have had something drummed into you from very early on and I feel its a very good thing to actually think about why we hold such strong views on certain things..just a thought..
Thursday, October 26, 2006
ta-da!
Great progress is being made..!!
Here we are at the front door..
Lets take a look inside..
..well we could if the picture button hadn't stopped working..grr think its the laptop so will try again soon on a adifferent computer..
Afraid we can't go much further than that..not much to see in there.. but here is the house so far..well is currently leaning together..
...watch this space for more updates!!Thursday, October 19, 2006
Cute cute baby..!
I'm sure you'd rather hear about babies than me: http://theparkinsfordummies.blogspot.com
Monday, August 28, 2006
at steevy's house
Hey everyone I feel I should let you all know that this is my 201st post!! :p so there Callum!! Steevy says you're a lightweight!
Just been listing these on ebay incase anyones interested..(I'm not but hey you may be!) http://cgi.ebay.co.uk/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&item=170023932679
Ooh just remembered, I'm selling an 'Army Barmy' bag on ebay, its ended but will probably relist again soon, so if anyones interested let me know!
Sorry I will blog soon, I have long neglected this blog! Night night xx
Just been listing these on ebay incase anyones interested..(I'm not but hey you may be!) http://cgi.ebay.co.uk/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&item=170023932679
Ooh just remembered, I'm selling an 'Army Barmy' bag on ebay, its ended but will probably relist again soon, so if anyones interested let me know!
Sorry I will blog soon, I have long neglected this blog! Night night xx
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
lots and lots of things
Running out of excuses for not blogging now...ah well, take it as a good thing, it means I'm spending a lot less time on the computer, actually thats very true, I hardly ever spend much time on the computer these days..maybe its a sign that I do have a life - woo!!
Hah. Well I have been busy thats for sure. Had a week off last week, to spend with Stephen, (currently feeling rather agitated with missing him, its the worst kind!) We went to London, the queen was busy unfortunately, else I'm sure we would have been invited for tea. we saw lots of things, including Big Ben, which we did have a little difficulty finding, until we realised that the big tall building in front of WAS Big Ben!! Stephen felt it necessary to take every picture from about 5 different angles so I won't put them all up but as soon as I get them onto my computer you can all have a gander (just a warning, some may be disturbing..)
Went to Betws-Y-Coed that week too, which I thought was a first, until I got there, and realised I'd been there before...duh! There are pictures from there too, but I won't bore you with loads of pictures..then again what does interest you in my blog? This ain't exactly thrilling stuff is it?! Let me see....ooh yes, whilst we were in Harrods there was a man..I can see you're on the edge of your seats now! And he was demonstrating how to throw this boomerangy thingy bob, an it was quite impressive I must admit, but decided against buying one as they were rather expensive, but lo and behold the next day we we're in cheshire oaks, buying an envelope within which to put our written complaint to KFC (which is a whole other story!!) when we come across these boomerang things dirt cheap! But its a sad end to the story..Stephen threw it too far...but we got it back!! But we can't get it to work..it doesn't go around in a circle..it just sort of floats-n-flops.. (btw if you want to know about the KFC please see either myself of Steevy after the lesson for further information)
Anyway, I might be back later with pictures, just got an email form Janet with Friday night plan so I'll go look at that.
ta-ta xx
Hah. Well I have been busy thats for sure. Had a week off last week, to spend with Stephen, (currently feeling rather agitated with missing him, its the worst kind!) We went to London, the queen was busy unfortunately, else I'm sure we would have been invited for tea. we saw lots of things, including Big Ben, which we did have a little difficulty finding, until we realised that the big tall building in front of WAS Big Ben!! Stephen felt it necessary to take every picture from about 5 different angles so I won't put them all up but as soon as I get them onto my computer you can all have a gander (just a warning, some may be disturbing..)
Went to Betws-Y-Coed that week too, which I thought was a first, until I got there, and realised I'd been there before...duh! There are pictures from there too, but I won't bore you with loads of pictures..then again what does interest you in my blog? This ain't exactly thrilling stuff is it?! Let me see....ooh yes, whilst we were in Harrods there was a man..I can see you're on the edge of your seats now! And he was demonstrating how to throw this boomerangy thingy bob, an it was quite impressive I must admit, but decided against buying one as they were rather expensive, but lo and behold the next day we we're in cheshire oaks, buying an envelope within which to put our written complaint to KFC (which is a whole other story!!) when we come across these boomerang things dirt cheap! But its a sad end to the story..Stephen threw it too far...but we got it back!! But we can't get it to work..it doesn't go around in a circle..it just sort of floats-n-flops.. (btw if you want to know about the KFC please see either myself of Steevy after the lesson for further information)
Anyway, I might be back later with pictures, just got an email form Janet with Friday night plan so I'll go look at that.
ta-ta xx
lots and lots of things
Running out of excuses for not blogging now...ah well, take it as a good thing, it means I'm spending a lot less time on the computer, actually thats very true, I hardly ever spend much time on the computer these days..maybe its a sign that I do have a life - woo!!
Hah. Well I have been busy thats for sure. Had a week off last week, to spend with Stephen, (currently feeling rather agitated with missing him, its the worst kind!) We went to London, the queen was busy unfortunately, else I'm sure we would have been invited for tea. we saw lots of things, including Big Ben, which we did have a little difficulty finding, until we realised that the big tall building in front of WAS Big Ben!! Stephen felt it necessary to take every picture from about 5 different angles so I won't put them all up but as soon as I get them onto my computer you can all have a gander (just a warning, some may be disturbing..)
Went to Betws-Y-Coed that week too, which I thought was a first, until I got there, and realised I'd been there before...duh! There are pictures from there too, but I won't bore you with loads of pictures..then again what does interest you in my blog? This ain't exactly thrilling stuff is it?! Let me see....ooh yes, whilst we were in Harrods there was a man..I can see you're on the edge of your seats now! And he was demonstrating how to throw this boomerangy thingy bob, an it was quite impressive I must admit, but decided against buying one as they were rather expensive, but lo and behold the next day we we're in cheshire oaks, buying an envelope within which to put our written complaint to KFC (which is a whole other story!!) when we come across these boomerang things dirt cheap! But its a sad end to the story..Stephen threw it too far...but we got it back!! But we can't get it to work..it doesn't go around in a circle..it just sort of floats-n-flops.. (btw if you want to know about the KFC please see either myself of Steevy after the lesson for further information)
Anyway, I might be back later with pictures, just got an email form Janet with Friday night plan so I'll go look at that.
ta-ta xx
Hah. Well I have been busy thats for sure. Had a week off last week, to spend with Stephen, (currently feeling rather agitated with missing him, its the worst kind!) We went to London, the queen was busy unfortunately, else I'm sure we would have been invited for tea. we saw lots of things, including Big Ben, which we did have a little difficulty finding, until we realised that the big tall building in front of WAS Big Ben!! Stephen felt it necessary to take every picture from about 5 different angles so I won't put them all up but as soon as I get them onto my computer you can all have a gander (just a warning, some may be disturbing..)
Went to Betws-Y-Coed that week too, which I thought was a first, until I got there, and realised I'd been there before...duh! There are pictures from there too, but I won't bore you with loads of pictures..then again what does interest you in my blog? This ain't exactly thrilling stuff is it?! Let me see....ooh yes, whilst we were in Harrods there was a man..I can see you're on the edge of your seats now! And he was demonstrating how to throw this boomerangy thingy bob, an it was quite impressive I must admit, but decided against buying one as they were rather expensive, but lo and behold the next day we we're in cheshire oaks, buying an envelope within which to put our written complaint to KFC (which is a whole other story!!) when we come across these boomerang things dirt cheap! But its a sad end to the story..Stephen threw it too far...but we got it back!! But we can't get it to work..it doesn't go around in a circle..it just sort of floats-n-flops.. (btw if you want to know about the KFC please see either myself of Steevy after the lesson for further information)
Anyway, I might be back later with pictures, just got an email form Janet with Friday night plan so I'll go look at that.
ta-ta xx
Saturday, July 29, 2006
no picture
grrr can't add pics to blog, not working for soem reason..anyways I was just gonna stick a picture of my beloved up, so you're all probably glad, just didn't want you to forget what he looks like..I might..anyways blog soon xx
Wednesday, July 19, 2006
'Pause to think'
Okie Dokie folkies! ..currently bleeding please bear with me..
..tis all ok now, the spot has stopped oozing blood! Anyways..! Apparently I'm slacking! Tis a long time actually since I did blog, so here I am once more. I wonder if my life will interest you, well if not, writing is a good distraction from the heat!
Can't rememeber where we were up to last but briefly; I've finished school, I'm working and Steevying, and thats about it for the time being. I've been job hunting in Chester (fun fun isn't it callum!!) lol, lets just hope I get some replies! Well actually I've had one application form today which I've sent off, good start!
Now onto the more thought provoking stuff. Not liking the thought provoking stuff at the moment..you know when you have a problem, an obstruction, and you know its gotta go, but you don't really know how to go about it, and so you just leave it, in the hope it'll magically be ok (and sometimes it is magically ok), but not always. Well thats kind of how I feel about my relationship with God at the moment, well, what there is of it. I've left things to cool down a bit, stepped back so as to prevent getting hurt, but instead of taking things slowly, I think I'm actually going backwards? I'm scared of going into deep, I don't even know how to go in too deep! I don't know how to approach God? I just don't seem able to? And so I'm edging back with every attempt. You'd think I'd give up wouldnt you, that I wouldn't want a relationship with God if its gonna be so unachievable, but thats the annoying thing! I really want it! And yet at the same time I don't want it, cus I'm scared of the pain?! Its been playing on my mind constantly, I can never get rid of the thoughts in my head when they come, and part of me doesn't want them to go, but its a constant distraction, not that I really have much to be distracted from at the mo, in fact I've got more time to think and work things out than I've had for ages, but will this time be any different form the rest? Will this 'pause to think' actually be fruitful? Or will it just lead to the same dissapointment that I've become so wary of?
Who knows.
..tis all ok now, the spot has stopped oozing blood! Anyways..! Apparently I'm slacking! Tis a long time actually since I did blog, so here I am once more. I wonder if my life will interest you, well if not, writing is a good distraction from the heat!
Can't rememeber where we were up to last but briefly; I've finished school, I'm working and Steevying, and thats about it for the time being. I've been job hunting in Chester (fun fun isn't it callum!!) lol, lets just hope I get some replies! Well actually I've had one application form today which I've sent off, good start!
Now onto the more thought provoking stuff. Not liking the thought provoking stuff at the moment..you know when you have a problem, an obstruction, and you know its gotta go, but you don't really know how to go about it, and so you just leave it, in the hope it'll magically be ok (and sometimes it is magically ok), but not always. Well thats kind of how I feel about my relationship with God at the moment, well, what there is of it. I've left things to cool down a bit, stepped back so as to prevent getting hurt, but instead of taking things slowly, I think I'm actually going backwards? I'm scared of going into deep, I don't even know how to go in too deep! I don't know how to approach God? I just don't seem able to? And so I'm edging back with every attempt. You'd think I'd give up wouldnt you, that I wouldn't want a relationship with God if its gonna be so unachievable, but thats the annoying thing! I really want it! And yet at the same time I don't want it, cus I'm scared of the pain?! Its been playing on my mind constantly, I can never get rid of the thoughts in my head when they come, and part of me doesn't want them to go, but its a constant distraction, not that I really have much to be distracted from at the mo, in fact I've got more time to think and work things out than I've had for ages, but will this time be any different form the rest? Will this 'pause to think' actually be fruitful? Or will it just lead to the same dissapointment that I've become so wary of?
Who knows.
Saturday, June 03, 2006
Short (ish) break ..
Felt I should do some blogging (its amazing what you feel the urge to do when the other option is revision!!) Anyway, I shall take a short break as I don't seem to be getting anywhere at this present moment (economies of scale wooo!)
Just finished reading the sequel to 'Dear Bob', 'Love Jude', the two books are about a teenage girl just starting out at uni, really looking forward to it all, but she has a dream that causes her to doubt, and nearly lose her faith. The two books take us through her experiences at uni, as she learns about life, the temptations she faces, and how God works in her life, it really is a fantastic book! Its the second time I've read it, I have a feeling God wanted me to read it this second time around, cus its made me think so much, I can relate so well to this girl, and its really encouraged me! Thinking about it, I couldn't have read this book at a more apt time! Just thinking about whats gone on these last few days, and how this book has whoooooooooooa......
Sorry I'm back, went into a bit of a daze, I wish I could explain but can't lol soz must be annoying, anyways God is sooooo there in your time of need!! Even if its subconciously! ... sorry... lol... rather distracted now...
Just finished reading the sequel to 'Dear Bob', 'Love Jude', the two books are about a teenage girl just starting out at uni, really looking forward to it all, but she has a dream that causes her to doubt, and nearly lose her faith. The two books take us through her experiences at uni, as she learns about life, the temptations she faces, and how God works in her life, it really is a fantastic book! Its the second time I've read it, I have a feeling God wanted me to read it this second time around, cus its made me think so much, I can relate so well to this girl, and its really encouraged me! Thinking about it, I couldn't have read this book at a more apt time! Just thinking about whats gone on these last few days, and how this book has whoooooooooooa......
Sorry I'm back, went into a bit of a daze, I wish I could explain but can't lol soz must be annoying, anyways God is sooooo there in your time of need!! Even if its subconciously! ... sorry... lol... rather distracted now...
Thursday, May 25, 2006
this a bloggedy-blog
Heloo, haven't blogged in a while, but thats not the whole truth, I have half a post waiting to be put up but I'm stuck at the moment but I will get it done as soon as I can. Just had my french listening exam, didn't go as hoped, just hope I passed, was feeling a bit down on way home, but was soon cheered up. There's a nursing home along this particular street which I pass every day, and recently there has been this one man who always waves to me, and as I walked past today he had a big grin on his face and was waving extra enthusiastically! Made me smile lol.
Anyways, I'm not gonna say too much cus I'll probably end up repeating myself in my other post, bu the devil has become more apparent of late and I was just reading this blog (looking specifically at the post about Melbourne) this girls blog is a real inspiration, and I would encourage you to read it: http://christswarrior.blogspot.com/ thats all for now, will post soon xx
Anyways, I'm not gonna say too much cus I'll probably end up repeating myself in my other post, bu the devil has become more apparent of late and I was just reading this blog (looking specifically at the post about Melbourne) this girls blog is a real inspiration, and I would encourage you to read it: http://christswarrior.blogspot.com/ thats all for now, will post soon xx
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
ROOTS
I'm afraid I do not have the full collection of roots pictures yet, but this is what I took (hence why they are rather Steevy orientated) but as soon as I get the rest I'll put them up, but for now, here's a taster of what's to come :) Some of these photos are rather random but hey thats what its all about! (ish!) If we start with the top left hand corner, well, I don't know what the faces ae for, but we were waiting to go into the big top tent lol, moving across, we can see Tri posing for the camera..lol. What we have next is Janet and Brian's car, which we thought we'd do up for them *hint hint* lol. Down the side we have Tri, Ni, and Ty. Below we have a game of downfall in full swing, I'd like to point out this was before the meeting not during! Then moving left we have a mark left on the delagates (sp) comments board by Tri (I'm hoping when I publish this you will be able to get the picture bigger by clicking on it so you can see it in more detail, if ot I'll publish it separately) Oh and then last but not least we have er...is that my boyfriend?? Oh deary me..! I think we were supposed to be finding a use for the cotton wool, I don't call that practical exactly...and so yes there are more to come hopefully, but I can't guarantee they'll be quite as creative as mine, but ya never know! hope this works now!! xx
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
Child-like faith
I was lying in bed last night thinking about all the things in my life, which I’m not very proud of, and there’s a lot. There are things I’ve done which clearly go against God’s word, and yet did that stop me? No, I still did those things, knowing full well what I was doing, but I tried to convince myself it was ok. I struggle to believe that God can forgive me for these things, but what I find the hardest is the fact that I’ve not just let myself down but I’ve let down those who I was trying so hard to set an example to. I had high standards, and I was proud of them, I was going to uphold them, and I did, but bit by bit I gave into temptation, until I was just the opposite of what I wanted to be. I felt, and still do feel, very much a hypocrite. I told my friends I wouldn’t do these things, I don’t believe it’s right, and yet when it came to the crunch, I failed.
Some of my failings are very personal but others are known by my friends. Although I’m ashamed, I’m not going to lie to them. The last thing I want is for me to set them the wrong example, but on the other hand, I’m very far from perfect, and I don’t want them to believe that Christian people are perfect, ‘cause we’re not! I don’t want them to believe that being a Christian is a breeze, ‘cause it really ain’t!! The pressure’s on, bit time! I want my friends to know the real me, I refuse to put up a front, I really see no gain in that at all.
I’ve failed in so many ways, and as a result, the confidence I had in my ability to fight temptation has taken some serious knocks. If I find myself tempted, I doubt my strength to cope, and so give up before I’ve even begun. But last night I was talking this through with God and well I began to wonder if recently, I’ve placed too much focus on keeping up high standards in order to get right with God, when what I really need to do is just be with God and then the other things in my life can be dealt with. I feel a lot of the time when I am faced with temptation, and I succumb, I’ve pushed myself that little bit further away from God, and instead of going straight to Him, I push myself away until I feel a little more worthy, which I stupid, because I’m never gonna feel worthy enough, hence forth I’m never gonna get up close with God, ‘cause I’ll never let myself.
I find it easy to say all these things, but to actually do something about it is another thing. How do I approach God when I feel so unworthy? How do I know I’m truly forgiven? It takes child-like faith.
Some of my failings are very personal but others are known by my friends. Although I’m ashamed, I’m not going to lie to them. The last thing I want is for me to set them the wrong example, but on the other hand, I’m very far from perfect, and I don’t want them to believe that Christian people are perfect, ‘cause we’re not! I don’t want them to believe that being a Christian is a breeze, ‘cause it really ain’t!! The pressure’s on, bit time! I want my friends to know the real me, I refuse to put up a front, I really see no gain in that at all.
I’ve failed in so many ways, and as a result, the confidence I had in my ability to fight temptation has taken some serious knocks. If I find myself tempted, I doubt my strength to cope, and so give up before I’ve even begun. But last night I was talking this through with God and well I began to wonder if recently, I’ve placed too much focus on keeping up high standards in order to get right with God, when what I really need to do is just be with God and then the other things in my life can be dealt with. I feel a lot of the time when I am faced with temptation, and I succumb, I’ve pushed myself that little bit further away from God, and instead of going straight to Him, I push myself away until I feel a little more worthy, which I stupid, because I’m never gonna feel worthy enough, hence forth I’m never gonna get up close with God, ‘cause I’ll never let myself.
I find it easy to say all these things, but to actually do something about it is another thing. How do I approach God when I feel so unworthy? How do I know I’m truly forgiven? It takes child-like faith.
Tuesday, May 02, 2006
ROOTS 06 - Metamorphosis
Greetings! Its the day after the weekend before! Got back around tea-time yesterday from Roots, completely knackered! Think I need another holiday now..lol. Anyway, I'm still tired and can't be bothered to go into things in too much depth, and a lot of it I'm working through in my head anyway. To be honest when I was at Roots I didn't think I got much out of it, not as much as I was hoping for, but today I've been thinking a lot; like I said I didn't receive what I was hoping for, but then maybe that's not what I needed? What has dawned on me after this weekend will stand me in better stead for the rest of this year than any momentary encounter with God would have done, I can't say I felt God move in any spectacular way, I knew God was there, I could see that, but I couldn't feel it as much as I so desperately wanted to, but its nothing to beat myself up about. I can't say I've ever encountered God in a mind blowing way in my life, I remember a particular occasion when I felt God really close, and I guess its that feeling I'm looking for again, but I know its not all about feeling God, sometimes we just have to believe, even if we really are struggling to sense Jesus in our lives.
Roots highlighted my struggle in my spiritual life, but I don't want to take this as a negative, even though I am struggling, I know God is in my life, for he's living in those around me, I see Jesus in the people closest to me, they are my hope. God places people in my life just where I need them, just when I need them. His presence is not lost, my outlook is a positive one, I just need encouragement to persevere. Anyway I just want to thank God for one extremely special person, and that is my darling Steevy, your timing in my life couldn't be more perfect, therefore I know you're God given as we all know you're far from perfect :p but I love you, and to me you are just perfect (I do apologies if that's too sentimental for any of you out there, but what can I say, I'm feeling rather loved up!)
Anyway, I have some great pictures of our weekend away which when I have collected from my various source I will put up for you, and don't forget about out Tri-Ni-Ty blog, they of course came with us so check out the link down the side for their version of events! ---->
Roots highlighted my struggle in my spiritual life, but I don't want to take this as a negative, even though I am struggling, I know God is in my life, for he's living in those around me, I see Jesus in the people closest to me, they are my hope. God places people in my life just where I need them, just when I need them. His presence is not lost, my outlook is a positive one, I just need encouragement to persevere. Anyway I just want to thank God for one extremely special person, and that is my darling Steevy, your timing in my life couldn't be more perfect, therefore I know you're God given as we all know you're far from perfect :p but I love you, and to me you are just perfect (I do apologies if that's too sentimental for any of you out there, but what can I say, I'm feeling rather loved up!)
Anyway, I have some great pictures of our weekend away which when I have collected from my various source I will put up for you, and don't forget about out Tri-Ni-Ty blog, they of course came with us so check out the link down the side for their version of events! ---->
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
Doubts
For a person of faith, doubts hav to be the hardest thing to deal with, in my opinion they are anyway. Cause if u think about it, no matter what comes ur way, you are given the strength to cope, but what if you doubt that strength? What hav you got then? Doubts are hard to shake, the only thing that combats doubt is faith, which is what you doubt in the first place..confused yet?!
Saturday, April 15, 2006
Blogging
Apparently I insulted the blogging world today as I said I hadn't blogged anything 'proper' for a while, this is according to the bestest blogger of all time of course steevy, who I would like to add, only joined bloggers circle very recently so I don't really think he's been around long enough to be making such comments..anyways..what I actually meant was that I hadn't written much that tied in with the theme of this blog, although come to think of it, it is defined as 'Louicat's random thoughts' so there you go, I am fulfilling the criteria so perhaps you are right after all my dear but never-the-less I am indeed rambling, I do this a lot..SO..
I'm currently working on my business studies coursework, its not going to badly. I've got quite a packed easter hols this year, with working, revising and steevy-ing, just finished makin my egg for steevy today, though it is only half an egg now, but its all good! lol.
So lets be religious for a moment, I'm not very religious of late. Though I have to say I hate the word religious, cause we're not called to be that at all, but faithful. I don't like to be considered religious, though I'm happy to be thought that than nothing. Woo 3 sentences of jumbled up mush, I like it! lol. Yes so back to the point, when I think about where my life is now, I'm happy, my life is full of things to occupy me, but that won't always be the case. Its in the quiet moments it begins to dawn, how far I've travelled from God, and although I know I'm not as far as I have been in the past, I know I'm no-where near. I'm scared of trying though. I tried so hard to reach out to God, to feel him in my life, but it caused me too much pain, I don't wanna go through that again, but I'm not happy with where I am now, so what do I do? I'm waiting, but I don't know what for. Roots is just around the corner, it makes sense to make that my focal point, to get my relationship with God back on track, but I tried that once before, it just doesn't work like that. However its all in God's time, so maybe this time is the time? I'm trying to find the middle road, to not expect too much, but still remain expectant, its a hard medium to grasp. I just hope God shows me the way; I really want to him to be part of my life. Circumstance lifts me above it all for the time being, but for how long can I keep my head above the water? I just wait now.
I'm currently working on my business studies coursework, its not going to badly. I've got quite a packed easter hols this year, with working, revising and steevy-ing, just finished makin my egg for steevy today, though it is only half an egg now, but its all good! lol.
So lets be religious for a moment, I'm not very religious of late. Though I have to say I hate the word religious, cause we're not called to be that at all, but faithful. I don't like to be considered religious, though I'm happy to be thought that than nothing. Woo 3 sentences of jumbled up mush, I like it! lol. Yes so back to the point, when I think about where my life is now, I'm happy, my life is full of things to occupy me, but that won't always be the case. Its in the quiet moments it begins to dawn, how far I've travelled from God, and although I know I'm not as far as I have been in the past, I know I'm no-where near. I'm scared of trying though. I tried so hard to reach out to God, to feel him in my life, but it caused me too much pain, I don't wanna go through that again, but I'm not happy with where I am now, so what do I do? I'm waiting, but I don't know what for. Roots is just around the corner, it makes sense to make that my focal point, to get my relationship with God back on track, but I tried that once before, it just doesn't work like that. However its all in God's time, so maybe this time is the time? I'm trying to find the middle road, to not expect too much, but still remain expectant, its a hard medium to grasp. I just hope God shows me the way; I really want to him to be part of my life. Circumstance lifts me above it all for the time being, but for how long can I keep my head above the water? I just wait now.
Tuesday, April 11, 2006
PLEASE SAVE ME FROM THE MAD HOUSE!!!!
We have now exceeded 2 1/2 hours of monopoly...fortunately I'm bankrupt and so have to concentrate no longer! Mine brain is all a mush, and my head can't take the noise no more!! Timothy is still rather over excited, and is extremely on edge as he's on the verge of bankruptcy! Timothy's birthday today, 11yrs now...makes me feel old! My eyes are hurting.. its Stephen vs Daniel vs Timothy (who is on his way out..) my oh my what an evening..have a fantastic picture to come but steevy's phone has just died..
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
Yo fellow people of the earth! (skool work taking its toll..!)
Hey there! Thought I'd slot a blog in, I can't look at another french word for the moment! Shall I fill you in on my current lifestyle at the moment? It goes something like this; work, work, work.....and work! Oh yeah what joyful times! I'm actually quite enjoying life right now (up to a point!) its just trying to not get stressed out, thats the key! I don't think I've ever actually had this much work to do! I'm writing a French oral as well as doing Business studies coursework, and a 1000 word essay somewhere inbetween lol. And then there's a sermon on top of that, but I think I should be ok with that thanks to Callum! Might make a start on that tonight. Life is groovay! I'm actually quite suprised at myself for being so upbeat to be honest, usually this much pressure would wear me down, but tis all good :) The weekends get me through the week, all thanks to my darling Steevy who has the ability to make me smile no matter what :D
I'm really looking forward to roots now! I'm not so worried about cash now, and its just gonna be one big relief to get there! I may sleep the whole time mind you..! Teehee. Anyways I must make a start on that sermon now...TTFN! xxxxxx
I'm really looking forward to roots now! I'm not so worried about cash now, and its just gonna be one big relief to get there! I may sleep the whole time mind you..! Teehee. Anyways I must make a start on that sermon now...TTFN! xxxxxx
Sunday, March 26, 2006
Happy Birthday Steevy Darling!
I love you darling - Happy Birthday :)Thursday, March 16, 2006
All the days I cannot see..
...Have all been planned for me!
Perfect timing isn't the word for it!! My french oral is on the 27th April - you have no idea how fantastic that is so let me explain!
**A-level french exam - MEGA scary!!!
**Exam dates could have been any time between 3rd April - 15th May (with easter hols in the middle)
**Roots is the 28th April - 1st May
Are you getting my drift now...?? Its the day before roots, its first thing in the moring, which means - I have the easter hols to really prepare myself, and then its over the day before Roots, and I hav the rest of the day to pack and be excited! It couldn't be more perfect! I'm so chuffed!
ROLL ON ROOTS!!!
Perfect timing isn't the word for it!! My french oral is on the 27th April - you have no idea how fantastic that is so let me explain!
**A-level french exam - MEGA scary!!!
**Exam dates could have been any time between 3rd April - 15th May (with easter hols in the middle)
**Roots is the 28th April - 1st May
Are you getting my drift now...?? Its the day before roots, its first thing in the moring, which means - I have the easter hols to really prepare myself, and then its over the day before Roots, and I hav the rest of the day to pack and be excited! It couldn't be more perfect! I'm so chuffed!
ROLL ON ROOTS!!!
Monday, March 13, 2006
Dearest Blog
Dear Blog, I'm feeling lonely today, got no-one to talk to right now, so I turn to you for a listening ear, I'm happy, but life's pretty stressful right now, and I really miss Steevy, things are taking their toll methinks. Do you giv blog hugs? lol wishful thinking 
my darling steevy...I love you xxx
my darling steevy...I love you xxxThursday, March 09, 2006
This thing I know
Somehow I've lost that unquestioning faith in you
Somehow I hear doubts all about you
But one thing I know Jesus I love you
This one thing I know Jesus I love you
And now I miss that child-like faith I had
My adult mind always complicating You
But on thing I know Jesus I love you
This one thing I know Jesus I love you
Strip away all that hinders me
Restore my hope
Bring me back to that place
Where I simply believed
Jesus I love you
Jesus I need you
Jesus I trust you
Jesus I love you
I absolutley love this song because I rememeber a time when I could relate to this exactly, but it was such an encouragement to know I wasn't the only one who had doubts about everything, life, Jesus, but no matter how angry I was with God, no matter how fed up I was, I always knew that I loved Jesus, there was no escaping that fact, he had a hold of my heart and I couldn't shake it, and at the time that hurt, but I'm glad Jesus will always have that place in my heart, because as long as He's there nothing can harm me, nothing can get to me, cause He's got a hold of me with His love :) I hope the words of this song will touch someone else, let them know we have doubts but we can still keep going, love triumphs all
Somehow I hear doubts all about you
But one thing I know Jesus I love you
This one thing I know Jesus I love you
And now I miss that child-like faith I had
My adult mind always complicating You
But on thing I know Jesus I love you
This one thing I know Jesus I love you
Strip away all that hinders me
Restore my hope
Bring me back to that place
Where I simply believed
Jesus I love you
Jesus I need you
Jesus I trust you
Jesus I love you
I absolutley love this song because I rememeber a time when I could relate to this exactly, but it was such an encouragement to know I wasn't the only one who had doubts about everything, life, Jesus, but no matter how angry I was with God, no matter how fed up I was, I always knew that I loved Jesus, there was no escaping that fact, he had a hold of my heart and I couldn't shake it, and at the time that hurt, but I'm glad Jesus will always have that place in my heart, because as long as He's there nothing can harm me, nothing can get to me, cause He's got a hold of me with His love :) I hope the words of this song will touch someone else, let them know we have doubts but we can still keep going, love triumphs all
Monday, March 06, 2006
Sin
Sin comes in all shapes and sizes, and yet God says there is no sin greater than another? How does this work?! Surely someone who swears isn't as bad as someone who stabs another? So does God see these sins in the same light? But ok lets say thats how it is, maybe no sin is greater than another so is it our attitude towards that sin? But again wouldn't we be more guilty for stabbing than swearing? More sorry? God forgives us when we say sorry, so it doesn't matter what we've done, but what if we aren't sorry at all? What if we continually do a particualar wrong knowing full well it goes against God's wishes? What happens then? How can God forgive when we are not sorry? Those of us who are saved? Are we always saved? What if we are ignorant to some of God's ways and choose to do some things we want? We know God loves us no matter what, but where's the line? Surely it can't mean once saved always saved cus there'd be a lot of ppl in the world claiming to be doing the work of God when really they've turned their backs and are doing what they like? What if we happen to be on the wrong side on that day when Jesus returns? What is it that keeps us heavenward? Is it our forgivness? Are we lost without it?
I realise this post is rather open and questionative (spelling) but gets ya thinking..if you've got any thoughts please leave a comment..xxx
I realise this post is rather open and questionative (spelling) but gets ya thinking..if you've got any thoughts please leave a comment..xxx
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
r-a-d-i-o g-o-n-e t-o t-h-e h-e-a-d!
I AM FAMOUS! I WAS ON RADIO 1!and my blog is the best because posts aren't too long unlike the other hefferlumpers who write essays!i am the fountain of all knowledge because unlike my beautiful girlfriend and callum, i spelt it right!thank you i shall go now!Love you! x
I have something to say regarding the above comment which was posted by some person who is clearly just plain lazy! Although he did call his girlfriend beautiful.. so we must not act too harshly on this poor lost soul who has obviously has lost the ability to read anything longer than a sentence in fear of overloading his brain, we must w-r-i-t-e s-l-o-w-l-y f-o-r h-i-m, d-o-n-t w-o-r-r-y s-t-e-e-v-y w-e-e-v-y!
(oh and of course I can spell knowledge...I was testing you ha!)
I have something to say regarding the above comment which was posted by some person who is clearly just plain lazy! Although he did call his girlfriend beautiful.. so we must not act too harshly on this poor lost soul who has obviously has lost the ability to read anything longer than a sentence in fear of overloading his brain, we must w-r-i-t-e s-l-o-w-l-y f-o-r h-i-m, d-o-n-t w-o-r-r-y s-t-e-e-v-y w-e-e-v-y!
(oh and of course I can spell knowledge...I was testing you ha!)
Tuesday, February 28, 2006
Wooo!
Steevy was on radio! I'm very proud of your moment of fame lol! love ya xxxxxxx
Heloo one and all!
Yo there, just thought I'd let you know about the new blogs on the block! (and remind you of existing one's) woo! As you may have noticed, there have been some stylish updates to my blog (well actually its just the new colours down the side for my links, but hey that took me an entire morning so hope you appreciate the new funkyness!) Yes so as you can see now, all fellow bloggers appear in yellow, so there are no excuses for not taking a look! We have the fountain of knowlegdge that is Callum, some very inspiring words from him on there, we also have the alpha blog from freddie caphone who must remain anon (but most of you knwo who it is, or can figure I think), we have ryan's blog but hes a tad behind currently as he's still living in december..and we also have a newbie in our midst, my darling steevy! How to describe his blog..well I won't say its not inspirational, because you know...his car can be inspiring as can his spar shop..I think..! Definately worth checking these blogs out!
Anyways thats my promoting out of the way, I'm actually trying to do my french but am struggling to find what I need on the internet so thought I'd take a break and write to you's all. Steevy's gonna be on the radio in a bit (radio1 newsbeat 12:45) so if your near a radio listen in! (can't guarantee you'll be moved and touched by whatever he sent in, but lets all support steevy in his 30seconds of fame!) ttfn xx
Anyways thats my promoting out of the way, I'm actually trying to do my french but am struggling to find what I need on the internet so thought I'd take a break and write to you's all. Steevy's gonna be on the radio in a bit (radio1 newsbeat 12:45) so if your near a radio listen in! (can't guarantee you'll be moved and touched by whatever he sent in, but lets all support steevy in his 30seconds of fame!) ttfn xx
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
Dear God, with love, your child xx
Life is fine and dandy
but I know I need you here
I don't know what's round the bend
The future's not so clear
You've taught me that I need you
And I feel it in my heart
You're theonly thing that matters
We cannot be apart
How then do I find myself
Wandering from your path
Content to keep you at arms length
Just out of your grasp
There are things I hold quite dear
Which you have placed right here
But I must not let their hold of me
Stop you from getting near
I want to do my best for you
but fail I often do
but please keep a tight hold of me
That's all I ask of you.
but I know I need you here
I don't know what's round the bend
The future's not so clear
You've taught me that I need you
And I feel it in my heart
You're theonly thing that matters
We cannot be apart
How then do I find myself
Wandering from your path
Content to keep you at arms length
Just out of your grasp
There are things I hold quite dear
Which you have placed right here
But I must not let their hold of me
Stop you from getting near
I want to do my best for you
but fail I often do
but please keep a tight hold of me
That's all I ask of you.
Tuesday, February 21, 2006
God won't ask you..
...God won't ask what kind of car you drove, He'll ask how many people you drove who didn't have transportation.
...God won't ask the square footage of your house, He'll ask how many people you welcomed into your home.
...God won't ask about the clothes you had in your closet, He'll ask how many you helped to clothe.
...God won't ask what your highest salary was, He'll ask if you compromised your character to obtain it.
...God won't ask what your job title was, He'll ask if you performed your job to the best of our ability.
...God won't ask how many friends you had, He'll ask how many people to whom you were a friend.
...God won't ask in what neighborhood you lived, He'll ask how you treated your neighbors.
...God won't ask about the color of your skin, He'll ask about the content of your character.
...God won't ask why it took you so long to seek Salvation, He'll lovingly take you to your mansion in heaven, and not to the gates of Hell.
...God won't ask the square footage of your house, He'll ask how many people you welcomed into your home.
...God won't ask about the clothes you had in your closet, He'll ask how many you helped to clothe.
...God won't ask what your highest salary was, He'll ask if you compromised your character to obtain it.
...God won't ask what your job title was, He'll ask if you performed your job to the best of our ability.
...God won't ask how many friends you had, He'll ask how many people to whom you were a friend.
...God won't ask in what neighborhood you lived, He'll ask how you treated your neighbors.
...God won't ask about the color of your skin, He'll ask about the content of your character.
...God won't ask why it took you so long to seek Salvation, He'll lovingly take you to your mansion in heaven, and not to the gates of Hell.
Monday, February 20, 2006
heloo one and all!
Guess where I am...slight mix up of days...so I'm at Stephen's house...without a Stephen...!! lol yah. He had to go into work, his favourite spar shop *rolls eyes*... so I've packed all my stuff and I've tidied his room *looks around at the amazingly spotless room* Just found out from my good friend Callum that we're having 3 congresses this year..3 different area ones..Lakes and Lancs on saturday night at Blackpool...Warrington and Liverpool at Warrington Sunday morning...and then sunday night for Wales and Wirral at Wrexham! I can see some people are gonna like that idea cause it means they can get to one of the meetings...but personally I don't favour the idea, doesn't feel very united! What about the people I wanna see in Liverpool? Warrington? Youth Councils is a long way off, ages til I get to meet up with my fellow army people, and now I'm not gonna get to see half of them at the congress either. I'm not saying its wrong. I'm all for trying new things, I mean there's nothing stopping me going to all three, but I'm not so sure I like this..
Anyways, might be going to Ikea a bit later..(have to make the most of being near Warrington!) Then I've got a United songster practice later on....haha just been trying to figure how to work surround sound can't do it so having to play cd's in dvd player.............guess what I'm listening to! The Smurf's greatest Hits!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha! moving on swiftly...! my back is really aching at the mo, bit annoying! Ste will be home in just over 2 hours now..lol..we did sudoku til the early hours of the morning..might do some more now.. will write more in a bit ... love ya;s all xxxx
Anyways, might be going to Ikea a bit later..(have to make the most of being near Warrington!) Then I've got a United songster practice later on....haha just been trying to figure how to work surround sound can't do it so having to play cd's in dvd player.............guess what I'm listening to! The Smurf's greatest Hits!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha! moving on swiftly...! my back is really aching at the mo, bit annoying! Ste will be home in just over 2 hours now..lol..we did sudoku til the early hours of the morning..might do some more now.. will write more in a bit ... love ya;s all xxxx
Sunday, February 12, 2006
The Louisa and Steevy Show!
Random things in no particular order, or any organise fashion of any sort!
Hey one and all! Its been a while since I blogged, been quite busy really, keeping on top of my work, seen steevy a lot of late (not enought if you ask me but eh..!) an just just been generaly busy, in and out of the house like a yo-yo these days! So, where to start, well, got a french oral to do and business studies coursework, but thats not interesting to you, I do have some exciting news though! To those of you who know them... Ryan and Tash are coming home!!! I'm really so happy for steevy, cus it means the world to him, and that means the world to me, so wooo its smiles all round! It was only the other week I was helping him write his testimony and he was saying how much he missed them...and then the next day Ryan told me about their plans to move back..there's no co-incidence there - just another God-incidence! So erm..yah.. as of today I'm an official songster! Long time coming really, but definately the right time, although I was beginning to doubt my place in the songsters these last few weeks, I really was gettin vibes from the Lord..I mean I was late for songsters 3 weeks ina row thanx to the brilliant rail service!! I thought maybe he didn't want me there...but i was assured otherwise so ya know lol!! Anyways think thats all for now... oh yeah have decided gonna give up chocolate for lent again this year, and so is ste (bit reluctant at the mo, but he'll come around to the idea I'm sure ..... *hopeful look*) lol TTFN xxxxxxxx
Monday, January 23, 2006
A heavy halo..
This being holy lark is pretty hard you know. I want God to be No.1, I really do, but I'm just not consistant enough in keeping him top in my life. I ask myself how much of my life God has control over? How much time I spend with him in comparison to the things of this world; my answer is shameful. Being consistent is so important. I remember when a time in my life, when I lived in constant prayer, everywhere I went I talked with God, it sounds stupid but I would talk to God on the way to school, talk through the day ahead with him, if there was something I wasn't looking forward to I'd talk it through with God, and it was calming, I knew I had no need to be frightened by anything. (When I say I talked to God, I mean I really did verbally talk lol so I did get strange looks sometimes!) Somedays I'd be so filled with the spirit I'd half skip to school, smiling all the way, other days I'd be more reserved if I had some things I was concerned about, but it didn't matter how I felt, nothing could get me down 'cause I was fully relying on God and I had nothing to fear.
I want to be like that, acknowledging God's presence every moment of the day, at the moment I feel like I could slip so easily, but if I was in his presence I know I could manage, but thats where I'm falling, I'm not placing myself in his hands all the time, and I'm slipping through the cracks, I choose when to let him take care of me and when not, I don't have the self-discipline. What do I have to do to free myself of the things that pull me down in those moments?
I want to be like that, acknowledging God's presence every moment of the day, at the moment I feel like I could slip so easily, but if I was in his presence I know I could manage, but thats where I'm falling, I'm not placing myself in his hands all the time, and I'm slipping through the cracks, I choose when to let him take care of me and when not, I don't have the self-discipline. What do I have to do to free myself of the things that pull me down in those moments?
Saturday, January 21, 2006
thoughts (sunday 15th Jan)
There are lots for things we have to face in life that really can take us by surprise, overwhelm us, and make us feel we cannot possibly cope, but God said that he would never give us more than we can bear. It can seem that when your faith is low, everyone else around you seems to have it all sussed; God's really working for them and not for you. I know I've felt that. But I can say with a smile on my face that God is working in every single one of us, whether we recognise it or not! The last time I really gave my testimony was at the congress last year, and I was really struggling to find something positive to say, I was hanging on to my faith as best I could, but only just. I remember thinking at the time, why me? What am I going to say to encourage anyone in this state? I still have no idea why I said yes to doing it but I did anyway, and I remember afterwards speaking to some officers, I didn't even know the couple that well but I was really touched by what they said, maybe that's all God wanted was for me to hear those words? I don't know, God works in ways I don't understand, but I trust him to keep me, and that's enough for me.
Praise is a key part of our lives, not the praise we give when here in our meetings, though that is important, but how we live our lives, for me, God has shown that it doesn't matter what I say up here, it means nothing, if my life does not match it, and that is why I struggled so much to give my testimony at the congress, because I had to be honest, there was no point disguising how I felt, I would have been lying to myself and everyone else, and what kind of faith would that be? Even though I felt that telling people I was struggling was pointless, pretending everything was fine and dandy would have done me no favours, just made me more desperate. Having a faith is by no means easy, and there's no point pretending, that just gives others the false impression that life's a breeze when you're a christian. When those tough times come, we need to know that we will come out the other side, we need to hear that people have gone through what we're going through, it gives us hope, something to hold on to. The tough times are what shape us, and often we need to go through painful times for us to realise how much we need God.
The best way we can praise God is just simply by living our lives for Him, there's no greater testament, through good or bad, just hold on, God has done, is doing, and will do, great things!
I just want to share with you the words of this song, which speak of both reality and hope.
You promised meThat You'd never leaveOr let me goYou promised meThat You'd love me throughThe highs and lowsYou promised meYou won't give me moreThan I can bear You promised meThat when I cry outThat You'd be thereThe shadowlands are what I knowSo I'm hanging on to Your every wordThe shadowlands surround me nowBut You walk with me through the cloud Into the sunInto the sunYou promised meIf I sow in tearsI'll reap in joyYou promised meThat You will breathe lifeInto my soulI know it's trueAll that You sayI believe in You And I am standing onThe promises You've madeYou promised me and I believe
Praise is a key part of our lives, not the praise we give when here in our meetings, though that is important, but how we live our lives, for me, God has shown that it doesn't matter what I say up here, it means nothing, if my life does not match it, and that is why I struggled so much to give my testimony at the congress, because I had to be honest, there was no point disguising how I felt, I would have been lying to myself and everyone else, and what kind of faith would that be? Even though I felt that telling people I was struggling was pointless, pretending everything was fine and dandy would have done me no favours, just made me more desperate. Having a faith is by no means easy, and there's no point pretending, that just gives others the false impression that life's a breeze when you're a christian. When those tough times come, we need to know that we will come out the other side, we need to hear that people have gone through what we're going through, it gives us hope, something to hold on to. The tough times are what shape us, and often we need to go through painful times for us to realise how much we need God.
The best way we can praise God is just simply by living our lives for Him, there's no greater testament, through good or bad, just hold on, God has done, is doing, and will do, great things!
I just want to share with you the words of this song, which speak of both reality and hope.
You promised meThat You'd never leaveOr let me goYou promised meThat You'd love me throughThe highs and lowsYou promised meYou won't give me moreThan I can bear You promised meThat when I cry outThat You'd be thereThe shadowlands are what I knowSo I'm hanging on to Your every wordThe shadowlands surround me nowBut You walk with me through the cloud Into the sunInto the sunYou promised meIf I sow in tearsI'll reap in joyYou promised meThat You will breathe lifeInto my soulI know it's trueAll that You sayI believe in You And I am standing onThe promises You've madeYou promised me and I believe
Saturday, January 14, 2006
the shadow lands
http://www.jesusfreakhideout.com/lyrics/new/track.asp?track_id=3289
Just been writing what I'm saying tomorrow, and then I decided to add the lyrics above to the end of it, and then I read the bit that follows the lyrics, and I could have practically written that its so similar to what I'm going to say, wel the point I wanted to get a across anyways! wierd eh.
Behind the Song:“Since I was a child, I’ve been inspired by the writings of C.S. Lewis. He talks about the ‘shadowlands’ in some of his work. To me, the ‘shadowlands’ represent the times in our lives when we feel like we are walking through a valley filled with a deep cloud—and we just can’t see how we’re going to move out of it—we can’t see much hope or the light at the end of the journey. I’ve been in those spots before in my own life. Times when feelings of discouragement and vulnerability seem to surround me… so much that it’s hard to see the light. What this song really says is that there is hope in the form of our God - who is constantly there with us even in the shadowlands. He will bring us through, out of the clouds and back into the light. I think there’s symbolism in that we’re using the word ‘sun’ in this song and at the same time we’re talking about the Son of God—Jesus—being the giver of that light. Another thing I enjoy about this song is that it talks about the promises of God—such as, ‘if I sow in tears, I’ll reap in joy’. My favorite part of the song is the bridge where it says: ‘I know it’s true—all that you say. I believe in you… And I’m standing on the promises you’ve made.’ To me, that’s such a big declaration of my faith.” - Rebecca St. James
Just been writing what I'm saying tomorrow, and then I decided to add the lyrics above to the end of it, and then I read the bit that follows the lyrics, and I could have practically written that its so similar to what I'm going to say, wel the point I wanted to get a across anyways! wierd eh.
Behind the Song:“Since I was a child, I’ve been inspired by the writings of C.S. Lewis. He talks about the ‘shadowlands’ in some of his work. To me, the ‘shadowlands’ represent the times in our lives when we feel like we are walking through a valley filled with a deep cloud—and we just can’t see how we’re going to move out of it—we can’t see much hope or the light at the end of the journey. I’ve been in those spots before in my own life. Times when feelings of discouragement and vulnerability seem to surround me… so much that it’s hard to see the light. What this song really says is that there is hope in the form of our God - who is constantly there with us even in the shadowlands. He will bring us through, out of the clouds and back into the light. I think there’s symbolism in that we’re using the word ‘sun’ in this song and at the same time we’re talking about the Son of God—Jesus—being the giver of that light. Another thing I enjoy about this song is that it talks about the promises of God—such as, ‘if I sow in tears, I’ll reap in joy’. My favorite part of the song is the bridge where it says: ‘I know it’s true—all that you say. I believe in you… And I’m standing on the promises you’ve made.’ To me, that’s such a big declaration of my faith.” - Rebecca St. James
Friday, January 13, 2006
I need you, show me your way, I'm so scared of going my own way, my emotions control me, I want you to have a hold of me, I want you to show me.
Thursday, January 12, 2006
Don't you just love these words..
Knowing my failings, knowing my fears,
Seeing my sorrow, drying my tears.
Jesus recall me, me re-ordain;
You know I love you, use me again.
I have no secrets unknown to you,
No special graces, talents are few;
Yet your intention I would fulfil;
You know I love you, ask what you will.
For the far future I cannot see,
Promise your presence, travel with me;
Sunshine or shadows? I cannot tell;
You know I love you, all will be well.
John Gowans
Seeing my sorrow, drying my tears.
Jesus recall me, me re-ordain;
You know I love you, use me again.
I have no secrets unknown to you,
No special graces, talents are few;
Yet your intention I would fulfil;
You know I love you, ask what you will.
For the far future I cannot see,
Promise your presence, travel with me;
Sunshine or shadows? I cannot tell;
You know I love you, all will be well.
John Gowans
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
intruiged..
For the last few weeks I kept coming across stickers on lamposts with the above website printed on my way to skool, I kept trying to remember to have a look at it, so I wrote it on my phone in the end an I've just come across it know..check it out lol!
www.notenglish.com
www.notenglish.com
Jesus be the centre
Jesus be the center
Be my source be my light Jesus
Jesus be the center
Be my song Jesus
Be the fire in my heart
Be the wind in my sails
Be the reason that I live
Jesus Jesus
Jesus be my vision
Be my help
Be my guide Jesus
Thats what I want, but I know how easy it is to be swayed, how easy it is to fall into bad habits, how Jesus can can be pushed aside becasue we think we may have found something more important, but it comes down to Jesus in the end, always will, even if it takes us til the end of time to realise, and by then it will be too late. I need encouragement to stay on the right path, cause I know without it I'll stray, I need God's strength to uphold me, to make me understand no matter what I think, its what God thinks that really matters, and nothing should comprimise that, I just need reminding!
Be my source be my light Jesus
Jesus be the center
Be my song Jesus
Be the fire in my heart
Be the wind in my sails
Be the reason that I live
Jesus Jesus
Jesus be my vision
Be my help
Be my guide Jesus
Thats what I want, but I know how easy it is to be swayed, how easy it is to fall into bad habits, how Jesus can can be pushed aside becasue we think we may have found something more important, but it comes down to Jesus in the end, always will, even if it takes us til the end of time to realise, and by then it will be too late. I need encouragement to stay on the right path, cause I know without it I'll stray, I need God's strength to uphold me, to make me understand no matter what I think, its what God thinks that really matters, and nothing should comprimise that, I just need reminding!
Monday, January 02, 2006
The journey which is life
Forgive me, for I have blogged a lot of late, but I just seem to have a lot to say suddenly!
I would firstly like to say what a turn-around for my life, I feel so much happier! And because i am happier it makes life seem just that bit easier. I am actually petrified when I think about what the future holds, especially this coming year, but I feel more able to bear it than I have been feeling lately. God promises us that he will give us no more than we can take, so no matter how great the burden or worry it will never be too much, and looking back, I can see times in my life when I was at breaking point but I always managed to pull through, I was able to bear the pain just sufficiently, don't get me wrong, I never wanna experience separation from God like I have done ever again but I can see that God never let the pain be so much that I had no choice but to let it takeover me. His grace is sufficient.
I don't know why I see these things now, or why things have changed even, I am happier, but there were things this year that I was happy with, why now should my new happiness enable me to make that connection with God again that I have longed for so much? I don't understand it but I'm not gonna try and sus out the God of the universe, I'm just thankful that I can say I feel God's presence with me once again. It couldn't be a better start to the year! Now for exams...eeeeek!! lol
I would firstly like to say what a turn-around for my life, I feel so much happier! And because i am happier it makes life seem just that bit easier. I am actually petrified when I think about what the future holds, especially this coming year, but I feel more able to bear it than I have been feeling lately. God promises us that he will give us no more than we can take, so no matter how great the burden or worry it will never be too much, and looking back, I can see times in my life when I was at breaking point but I always managed to pull through, I was able to bear the pain just sufficiently, don't get me wrong, I never wanna experience separation from God like I have done ever again but I can see that God never let the pain be so much that I had no choice but to let it takeover me. His grace is sufficient.
I don't know why I see these things now, or why things have changed even, I am happier, but there were things this year that I was happy with, why now should my new happiness enable me to make that connection with God again that I have longed for so much? I don't understand it but I'm not gonna try and sus out the God of the universe, I'm just thankful that I can say I feel God's presence with me once again. It couldn't be a better start to the year! Now for exams...eeeeek!! lol
Sunday, January 01, 2006
A bit toooo much shloer!!
Who needs alcohol!!
happyhappyhappy
happy new year!!
happy new year!
Happy New Year from Timothy!! (Louicat's lil bro!!)
Friday, December 30, 2005
RELIENT K
"Who I Am Hates Who I've Been"
I watched the proverbial sunrise
coming up over the Pacific and
you might think I'm losing my mind,
but I will shy away from the specifics...
'cause I don't want you to know where I am
'cause then you'll see my heart
in the saddest state it's ever been.
This is no place to try and live my life.
[Pre-Chorus]
Stop right there. That's exactly where I lost it.
See that line. Well I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there. Well I never should have said
that it's the very moment that
I wish that I could take back.
[Chorus]
I'm sorry for the person I became.
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to try and never become that way again
'cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.
I talk to absolutely no one.
Couldn't keep to myself enough.
And the things bottled inside have finally begun
to create so much pressure that I’ll soon blow up.
I heard the reverberating footsteps
sinking up to the beating of my heart,
and I was positive that unless I got myself together,
I would watch me fall apart.
And I can’t let that happen again
‘cause then you’ll see my heart
in the saddest state it’s ever been.
This is no place to try and live my life.
[Chorus]
Who I am hates who I've been
and who I am won’t take the second chance you gave me.
Who I am hates who I’ve been
‘cause who I’ve been only ever made me...
So sorry for the person I became.
So sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I’m ready to try and never become that way again
‘cause who I am hates who I’ve been.
Who I am hates who I’ve been.
Wednesday, December 28, 2005
Fit to cry
I'm on the verge of tears, happy tears though! You know when someone just connects with you on a level thats just not understandable, and it just moves you so much.. well thats how I feel right now, life suddenly makes sense again, the things that are past have shaped me, ready for what is to come, and I can see that right now in my life, its dawning on me like the sun rises, the blinding light is passing and I can make things out again, God, just like to say, thanx for the angels you bestow upon me, I do not deserve them but yet you place them in my life and over and over I see your love flowing, you have sustained me and now you are building me up again, I can feel you working within me, you kept your promise to me, and I love you so much! *You promised me if I sowed in tears, I'll reap in Joy*
Just got an email from my fave gurl friend cherie, never been so happy to hear from her in all my life! (I have been missing you cherie, I dont tell you how often enough what a great friend you are to me!)
And to SM ur the best gift God ever gave me, I miss you, I need you, I love you.
Just got an email from my fave gurl friend cherie, never been so happy to hear from her in all my life! (I have been missing you cherie, I dont tell you how often enough what a great friend you are to me!)
And to SM ur the best gift God ever gave me, I miss you, I need you, I love you.
meaningful
I feel like writing something meaningful, I'm listening to this song, 'You are loved', I dunno what it is about the song but its one of those songs that has my stomach in my mouth, touches deep down.
Its beautifully written, it also been dedicated to someone, which makes it even more special even though I have no idea who that person is!
'This is what I want to say to you, if I had one chance to speak to your heart, you are loved more than you could ever know, this is what i want to say to you if I had one chance to tell you something, you are loved, more than you can imagine..'
Such a beautiful love song, but the thing that makes the song even more beautiful is the last part:
'Not sure if I've made it clear enough, its not my love I sing about, everybody asks is God good, I believe He is, infact I know, He is'
What a beautiful line, God really is good, I'm sorry that I ever put him second in line, New Year, new start, and for me it really is, its not just a case of making some resolutions and seeing if I can stick to them for the first 3 weeks, this is serious change I am in need of, desperately:
'the shadowlands are what I need so I'm hanging on to your every word, the shadowlands surround me now, but you walk with me through the cloud, into the sun...'
Its beautifully written, it also been dedicated to someone, which makes it even more special even though I have no idea who that person is!
'This is what I want to say to you, if I had one chance to speak to your heart, you are loved more than you could ever know, this is what i want to say to you if I had one chance to tell you something, you are loved, more than you can imagine..'
Such a beautiful love song, but the thing that makes the song even more beautiful is the last part:
'Not sure if I've made it clear enough, its not my love I sing about, everybody asks is God good, I believe He is, infact I know, He is'
What a beautiful line, God really is good, I'm sorry that I ever put him second in line, New Year, new start, and for me it really is, its not just a case of making some resolutions and seeing if I can stick to them for the first 3 weeks, this is serious change I am in need of, desperately:
'the shadowlands are what I need so I'm hanging on to your every word, the shadowlands surround me now, but you walk with me through the cloud, into the sun...'
Tuesday, December 27, 2005
Dieu est bon...à tout moment!
Monday, December 19, 2005
tri-ni-ty celebrate christmas in style!
Saturday, December 17, 2005
reached the end of the road, I'm too far gone, there's no going back now, it doesn't matter what you say, I know the way I should go but I can't make it, I'll go my own way and maybe I'll meet you back on the road some other time? I need a break.
Thursday, December 15, 2005
TRINITY
check out the adventures on the TRI-NI-TY blog, I've updated it a bit now, at long last lol the links down the side of the page ---> but for all you lazy ppl I've copied it here for you
http://tri-ni-ty-world.blogspot.com/
http://tri-ni-ty-world.blogspot.com/
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
feelings
So much is happening to me. So much that I can't even see. So many words of wisdom that I am trying to be. Catch me if I should fall. And even more so while I'm standing tall. My head is spinning around and it's making me dizzy. I'm spinning around and it's making me ill. You don't understand what I'm going through just to find a way to climb. It'll be in my own time. It'll be in my own time. Whispering thoughts in all different ways. That I'm in a daze. My head is spinning around and it's making me dizzy. I'm spinning around and it's making me ill. You don't understand what I'm going through just to find a way to climb. It'll be in my own time. 'cause it'll be in my own time. In my own time. In my own time I'll take a chance. In my own time I'll find romance. In my own time. It'll be mine. After the clouds there'll be the rain. After the sun there'll be the moon it doesn't matter. 'cause it'll be in my own time.
What happened? Why didn't I listen to myself I thought I'd know how to handle it But I didn't So confused Where I stand Do I stand alone With each individual This is not me I used to be so strong Now I feel weak This is not me I never said that it was I didn't like it because I lost my way This is not me You know that it's true And I'd be lying to you just to convince myself This is not me What happened? Why didn't I speak up at the time I thought I'd know what was going on But I didn't So confused where I stand Do I stand alone With each individual This is not me I used to be so strong Now I feel weak This is not me I never said that it was I didn't like it because I had lost my way This is not me You know that it's true And I'd be lying to you just to convince myself This is not me Whoo oooh yeah Hey yeah So confused where I stand Do I stand alone Someone tell me Cause this is not me If I said that it was, I didn't like it because I had lost my way This is not me, you know that it's true I'd be lying to you just to convince myself This is not me.
I close my eyes and make a wish for Inner peace and tranquillity inside My mind I feel it's changing Breaking down the defences of my heart It's like a new adventure And this is my life No longer know the girl inside The stranger in my mind I'm running away. Running away from you Though I beg you to stay. I'm running away from you I'm running away. From predictable Miss reliable. So methodical Wanna be individual. And original So radical. And desirable Put a message in a bottle Watch it sail across the ocean blue So free of limitations A vision I can only fantasize I'm floating in a new direction As this is my life No longer know the girl inside The stranger in my mind.
What happened? Why didn't I listen to myself I thought I'd know how to handle it But I didn't So confused Where I stand Do I stand alone With each individual This is not me I used to be so strong Now I feel weak This is not me I never said that it was I didn't like it because I lost my way This is not me You know that it's true And I'd be lying to you just to convince myself This is not me What happened? Why didn't I speak up at the time I thought I'd know what was going on But I didn't So confused where I stand Do I stand alone With each individual This is not me I used to be so strong Now I feel weak This is not me I never said that it was I didn't like it because I had lost my way This is not me You know that it's true And I'd be lying to you just to convince myself This is not me Whoo oooh yeah Hey yeah So confused where I stand Do I stand alone Someone tell me Cause this is not me If I said that it was, I didn't like it because I had lost my way This is not me, you know that it's true I'd be lying to you just to convince myself This is not me.
I close my eyes and make a wish for Inner peace and tranquillity inside My mind I feel it's changing Breaking down the defences of my heart It's like a new adventure And this is my life No longer know the girl inside The stranger in my mind I'm running away. Running away from you Though I beg you to stay. I'm running away from you I'm running away. From predictable Miss reliable. So methodical Wanna be individual. And original So radical. And desirable Put a message in a bottle Watch it sail across the ocean blue So free of limitations A vision I can only fantasize I'm floating in a new direction As this is my life No longer know the girl inside The stranger in my mind.
Friday, December 02, 2005
Inspirational Business Studies!
Marketing Departments
Some companies do not feel the need for a marketing department, they consider it to be part of everyone's job and especially in smaller companies marketing activities are carried out along side other tasks. It is therefore more about the way people think and plan, rather than a departmental title.
Now it is not very often that I am passionate about business studies but I think there's something in this for us! As soon as the teacher started dictating this, it screamed out to me, evangelism!! Its so about evangelism! Let me expand on that before you think I've gone mad (if you don't already!)
In churches there are some people who can evangelise with more ease than others, and there are some jobs which they are best suited to (hence the marketing department) but I want to home in on the fact that its everyone's job! The smaller the church, the less people who are going to be able to evangelise, so its even more important, but it doesn't matter really, even if your church has thousands, its still your job to proclaim the gospel, Jesus sent ALL of us out to tell the world about Him. 'marketing activities are carried out along side other tasks' this sums up the way we should evangelise exactly! Its not about literally going out and telling the world (though there are times when that is the way to go about it) but for our every day lives, its all about reflecting God, and when people see God in you they're bound to ask questions! If you are really living out your life filled with the spirit then its impossible to miss, people are gonna see it in you! We all must have countless opporunities to tell someone about Jesus, and so often we let it pass, step out and just go for it, what have we got to lose??
All this makes me think of the Away-Day we had at our corps a while back. The focus was spiritual gifts, and when we looked in depth at each of our gifts, it was quite amazing to see how many of those different gifts were present in our church. We each have our own individual God given gift(s), but the fruit of the spirit is something we all have, and with that fruit how can we fail to scream out Jesus?
Awww the cats come to see what I'm doing lol. yeah so be inspiring, live out the marketing in you!!
love ya's all xxx
Some companies do not feel the need for a marketing department, they consider it to be part of everyone's job and especially in smaller companies marketing activities are carried out along side other tasks. It is therefore more about the way people think and plan, rather than a departmental title.
Now it is not very often that I am passionate about business studies but I think there's something in this for us! As soon as the teacher started dictating this, it screamed out to me, evangelism!! Its so about evangelism! Let me expand on that before you think I've gone mad (if you don't already!)
In churches there are some people who can evangelise with more ease than others, and there are some jobs which they are best suited to (hence the marketing department) but I want to home in on the fact that its everyone's job! The smaller the church, the less people who are going to be able to evangelise, so its even more important, but it doesn't matter really, even if your church has thousands, its still your job to proclaim the gospel, Jesus sent ALL of us out to tell the world about Him. 'marketing activities are carried out along side other tasks' this sums up the way we should evangelise exactly! Its not about literally going out and telling the world (though there are times when that is the way to go about it) but for our every day lives, its all about reflecting God, and when people see God in you they're bound to ask questions! If you are really living out your life filled with the spirit then its impossible to miss, people are gonna see it in you! We all must have countless opporunities to tell someone about Jesus, and so often we let it pass, step out and just go for it, what have we got to lose??
All this makes me think of the Away-Day we had at our corps a while back. The focus was spiritual gifts, and when we looked in depth at each of our gifts, it was quite amazing to see how many of those different gifts were present in our church. We each have our own individual God given gift(s), but the fruit of the spirit is something we all have, and with that fruit how can we fail to scream out Jesus?
Awww the cats come to see what I'm doing lol. yeah so be inspiring, live out the marketing in you!!
love ya's all xxx
Wednesday, November 16, 2005
yo peeps (i hate that term but hey lol)
im bored. sleep would be advisable but i dont feel like it, anyone wanna game of being bored? gonna see if i can get my groovy msn men onto here..... nope i cant darn it, u really wanted to see my groovy lil man didnt ya! I know i know, but lets move on, no! dont cry! do not fear, louisa'a here! teehee..!
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
Saturday, November 12, 2005
Life... strange eh?
OK I'm not gonna go on too much today, I just wanted to let you guys know that things are looking up with me and God, you dont know how relieved that makes me, but you know what, I can see it was all my fault now? I've seen the error of my ways, I'm throwin all the crap out of my life, layin it all down for God to sort out; all of it. There were a lot of things I refused to believe were standing between me and God, but he's opened my eyes, I can see again!
Lack of prayer was the thing that took me furthest from God, and its really hard to get back into when you haven't done it for so long! I wanna take this chance to ask you if there is something I can pray for you for? I know people have prayed for me so its my turn to support all you guys! Please leave your requests on the comments page, or on the prayer wall on the website.
Love ya's all xxxxx
xxxxx
Lord I'm praying, patiently waiting for an answer from you
seems frustrating how you are with and the silence is too
How do I respond to this
when all I see is wilderness
Come break through my emptiness and show me what to do
I've been waiting for so long for you to come and call my name
I need you lord
I will wait on you my Lord, I will wait on u my Lord.
Lack of prayer was the thing that took me furthest from God, and its really hard to get back into when you haven't done it for so long! I wanna take this chance to ask you if there is something I can pray for you for? I know people have prayed for me so its my turn to support all you guys! Please leave your requests on the comments page, or on the prayer wall on the website.
Love ya's all xxxxx
xxxxxLord I'm praying, patiently waiting for an answer from you
seems frustrating how you are with and the silence is too
How do I respond to this
when all I see is wilderness
Come break through my emptiness and show me what to do
I've been waiting for so long for you to come and call my name
I need you lord
I will wait on you my Lord, I will wait on u my Lord.
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
The way of love
09 Nov 2005
"...[LOVE] NEVER LOOKS BACK, BUT KEEPS GOING TO THE END" 1 CORINTHIANS 13:7 (TM)
One night in bed a wife says to her husband of 50 years, 'When we were young you used to hold my hand.' Slowly, a little irritated, his hand reaches out. 'And when we were young you used to snuggle up against me.' A little more slowly his body creaks and turns; nestling against hers. 'And when we were young you used to nibble on my ear.' Abruptly the covers are thrown back and he lurches out of bed. 'Where are you going?' she asks, a little hurt. 'To get my teeth,' he grumbles. When you're young, free and single it's hard to imagine all the changes a life-long relationship will bring. For lots of young people finding the perfect partner becomes an endless quest, filled with heartache. Well, here's a tip, instead of working on finding the perfect someone for you, why not work on becoming the perfect you for someone! All the instructions are in God's word.Listen to this, it's not just for weddings, it's for the whole of your life: 'Love never gives up. Love cares more for others than for self. Love doesn't want what it doesn't have. Love doesn't strut, it doesn't have a swelled head, doesn't force itself on others, isn't always 'me first', doesn't fly off the handle, doesn't keep score of the sins of others, doesn't revel when others grovel, takes pleasure in the flowering of truth, puts up with anything, trusts God always, always looks for the best, never looks back, but keeps going to the end'. (1 Cor.13.4-7 TM)
This is from the word for you today an felt it was applicable, well to me anyway xx
"...[LOVE] NEVER LOOKS BACK, BUT KEEPS GOING TO THE END" 1 CORINTHIANS 13:7 (TM)
One night in bed a wife says to her husband of 50 years, 'When we were young you used to hold my hand.' Slowly, a little irritated, his hand reaches out. 'And when we were young you used to snuggle up against me.' A little more slowly his body creaks and turns; nestling against hers. 'And when we were young you used to nibble on my ear.' Abruptly the covers are thrown back and he lurches out of bed. 'Where are you going?' she asks, a little hurt. 'To get my teeth,' he grumbles. When you're young, free and single it's hard to imagine all the changes a life-long relationship will bring. For lots of young people finding the perfect partner becomes an endless quest, filled with heartache. Well, here's a tip, instead of working on finding the perfect someone for you, why not work on becoming the perfect you for someone! All the instructions are in God's word.Listen to this, it's not just for weddings, it's for the whole of your life: 'Love never gives up. Love cares more for others than for self. Love doesn't want what it doesn't have. Love doesn't strut, it doesn't have a swelled head, doesn't force itself on others, isn't always 'me first', doesn't fly off the handle, doesn't keep score of the sins of others, doesn't revel when others grovel, takes pleasure in the flowering of truth, puts up with anything, trusts God always, always looks for the best, never looks back, but keeps going to the end'. (1 Cor.13.4-7 TM)
This is from the word for you today an felt it was applicable, well to me anyway xx
Voice of Hope
Remember this song? Well becca I know you will. How could we forget such a song that means so much?
I can't find the lyrics on the internet so I'm typing these as I hear them right now:
As high as the heavens, are above the sky
so high are your ways to mine,
ways so pefect, they never fail me
I know u r good all the time
And through the storm, yet I will praise you,
despite it all, yet I will sing,
through good or bad, yet I will worship
for u remain the same king of kings
You are the voice of hope
the anchor of my soul
where there seems to be no way, u make it possible
You are the prince of peace amidst adversity
my lips will shout for joy, to you the most high
You were the one before time began, theres nothing beyond your control
my confidence, my asssurance; it rests in your unchanging word
And through the storm, yet I will praise you,
despite it all, yet I will sing,
through good or bad, yet I will worship
for u remain the same king of kings
You are the voice of hope
the anchor of my soul
where there seems to be no way, u make it possible
You are the prince of peace amidst adversity
my lips will shout for joy, to you the most high.... and on it goes repeating those same higlighted words, we sang this song at summer school, it is such a great song, which I wanna sing like I did back then, so sure of my God, so confident in Him.
Ok so maybe I cheated a little bit, I did write the lyrics as she sang though, just a lot of spelling mistakes I had to correct (I had to type very fast!)
Love u all! xxxxxx
I can't find the lyrics on the internet so I'm typing these as I hear them right now:
As high as the heavens, are above the sky
so high are your ways to mine,
ways so pefect, they never fail me
I know u r good all the time
And through the storm, yet I will praise you,
despite it all, yet I will sing,
through good or bad, yet I will worship
for u remain the same king of kings
You are the voice of hope
the anchor of my soul
where there seems to be no way, u make it possible
You are the prince of peace amidst adversity
my lips will shout for joy, to you the most high
You were the one before time began, theres nothing beyond your control
my confidence, my asssurance; it rests in your unchanging word
And through the storm, yet I will praise you,
despite it all, yet I will sing,
through good or bad, yet I will worship
for u remain the same king of kings
You are the voice of hope
the anchor of my soul
where there seems to be no way, u make it possible
You are the prince of peace amidst adversity
my lips will shout for joy, to you the most high.... and on it goes repeating those same higlighted words, we sang this song at summer school, it is such a great song, which I wanna sing like I did back then, so sure of my God, so confident in Him.
Ok so maybe I cheated a little bit, I did write the lyrics as she sang though, just a lot of spelling mistakes I had to correct (I had to type very fast!)
Love u all! xxxxxx
check out some fellow bloggers!
(they're all doing the youth alpha course - some interesting stuff they're posting about - go check it out)
http://freddie-cafone.blogspot.com/
http://squelch81.blogspot.com
http://schlurplethepurple.blogspot.com/
http://freddie-cafone.blogspot.com/
http://squelch81.blogspot.com
http://schlurplethepurple.blogspot.com/
Thursday, November 03, 2005
on a lighter note..
A woman takes her 16-year-old daughter to the doctor. The doctor says,"Okay, Mrs. Jones, what's the problem?"The mother says, "It's my daughter, Debbie. She keeps getting these cravings, she's putting on weight, and is sick most mornings."The doctor gives Debbie a good examination, then turns to the mother and says,"Well, I don't know how to tell you this, but your Debbie is pregnant - about 4 months, would be my guess."The mother says, "Pregnant?! She can't be, she has never ever been left alone with a man! Have you, Debbie?"Debbie says, "No mother! I've never even kissed a man!"The doctor walked over to the window and just stares out it. About five minutes pass and finally the mother says,"Is there something wrong out there doctor?"The doctor replies, "No, not really, it's just that the last time anything like this happened, a star appeared in the east and three wise men came over the hill. I'll be darned if I'm going to miss it this time!"
In celebration of the complexities of the English language, we bring you the following: Lets face it English is a stupid language.
There is no egg in the eggplant
No ham in the hamburger
And neither pine nor apple in the pineapple.
English muffins were not invented in England
French fries were not invented in France.
We sometimes take English for granted but if we examine its paradoxes we find:- that Quicksand takes you down slowly
Boxing rings are square
And a guinea pig is neither from Guinea nor is it a pig.
If writers write, how come fingers don't fing.
If the plural of tooth is teeth shouldn't the plural of phone booth be phone beeth
If the teacher taught, why didn't the preacher praught.
If a vegetarian eats vegetables why don't humanitarians eat human!?
Why do people recite at a play yet play at a recital?
Park on driveways and drive on parkways?
How can the weather be as hot as hell on one day and as cold as hell on another?
You have to marvel at the unique lunacy of a language:- whereby a house can burn up as it burns down.
You fill in a form by filling it out.
A bell is only heard once it goes!
English was invented by people, not computers and it reflects the creativity of the human race (Which of course isn't a race at all)
In celebration of the complexities of the English language, we bring you the following: Lets face it English is a stupid language.
There is no egg in the eggplant
No ham in the hamburger
And neither pine nor apple in the pineapple.
English muffins were not invented in England
French fries were not invented in France.
We sometimes take English for granted but if we examine its paradoxes we find:- that Quicksand takes you down slowly
Boxing rings are square
And a guinea pig is neither from Guinea nor is it a pig.
If writers write, how come fingers don't fing.
If the plural of tooth is teeth shouldn't the plural of phone booth be phone beeth
If the teacher taught, why didn't the preacher praught.
If a vegetarian eats vegetables why don't humanitarians eat human!?
Why do people recite at a play yet play at a recital?
Park on driveways and drive on parkways?
How can the weather be as hot as hell on one day and as cold as hell on another?
You have to marvel at the unique lunacy of a language:- whereby a house can burn up as it burns down.
You fill in a form by filling it out.
A bell is only heard once it goes!
English was invented by people, not computers and it reflects the creativity of the human race (Which of course isn't a race at all)
If you have any simlilar things to share then please email me with them and I'll add them or just put them on the comments.
another:
Here is the LOST CHAPTER IN GENESIS....Adam was walking around the garden of Eden feeling very lonely, so God asked him,"What is wrong with you?"Adam said he didn't have anyone to talk to.God said that He was going to make Adam a companion and that it would be a woman.He said,"This person will gather food for you, cook for you, and when you discover clothing she'll wash it for you. She will always agree with every decision you make. She will bear your children and never ask you to get up in the middle of the night to take care of them. She will not nag you and will always be the first to admit she was wrong when you've had a disagreement. She will never have a headache and will freely give you love and passion whenever you need it.Adam asked God, "What will a woman like this cost?"God replied, "An arm and a leg."Then Adam asked, "What can I get for a rib?"The rest is history..
Monday, October 31, 2005
RELIENT K - For The Moments I Feel Faint
Am I at the point of no improvement?
What of the death I still dwell in?
I try to excel, but I feel no movement.
Can I be free of this unreleasable sin?
[Chorus:]
Never underestimate my Jesus.
You're telling me that there's no hope.
I'm telling you your wrong.
Never underestimate my Jesus
When the world around you crumbles
He will be strong, He will be strong
I throw up my hands
"Oh, the impossibilities"
Frustrated and tired
Where do I go from here?
Now I'm searching for the confidence I've lost so willingly
Overcoming these obstacles is overcoming my fear
[Chorus]
I think I can't, I think I can't
But I think you can, I think you can
I think I can't, I think I can't
But I think you can, I think you can
Gather my insufficiencies and
place them in your hands, place them in your hands, place them
in your hands
What of the death I still dwell in?
I try to excel, but I feel no movement.
Can I be free of this unreleasable sin?
[Chorus:]
Never underestimate my Jesus.
You're telling me that there's no hope.
I'm telling you your wrong.
Never underestimate my Jesus
When the world around you crumbles
He will be strong, He will be strong
I throw up my hands
"Oh, the impossibilities"
Frustrated and tired
Where do I go from here?
Now I'm searching for the confidence I've lost so willingly
Overcoming these obstacles is overcoming my fear
[Chorus]
I think I can't, I think I can't
But I think you can, I think you can
I think I can't, I think I can't
But I think you can, I think you can
Gather my insufficiencies and
place them in your hands, place them in your hands, place them
in your hands
Monday, October 24, 2005
check out the new blog link from some fellow christian teens --->
(last link on the list)
(last link on the list)
Monday, October 17, 2005
stop the world I wanna get off.
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
WANTED !!!!
Changes
Anyone remember when I spoke about changes a long time ago? If I remember rightly, is was Janet's first meeting? Its not on my blog but I'll quote some bits.
Ok lets look back, this must have been what, 2-3 years ago now? Mark and Linda were officers here, I was just starting my GCSE's, Timothy had never heard of Vivian Endicott Douglas! (thats a girl he is obsessed with for those of u who dont know! - how, I dont know!) This would be before I was made a senior soldier methinks? yeah, must have been. summer school had not yet come to pass. life was quite rosy, yeah, life was good.
It was the summer of 2004 that I was made a senior soldier, I was so happy that I had made that decision, it was also my chance to really make my friends see that my faith was for real, and it was who I was not what I had been moulded into. (I still have rachel's version of my testimony!) And while on the subject of my enrollement, I still haven't seen the video a year on?!
As the year went on things were not quite as fine and dandy, but I was more and more sure of what I had said about changes 'changes happen, there is nothing we can do about them, but we don't have to go through them alone'. Later that year we found out Mark and Linda were moving on, I was gutted (you could even say thats an under-statement) But no matter how much it pained me, I knew that it was all happening for a reason, there were things that God wanted to do here at Rhyl that I didn't understand. I remember it being pentecost around the change over time, I distinctly remember feeling the holy spirit surround me, comforting me, I think that is the most safe and secure i have ever felt in my entire life, in that one moment. There are times I have felt overjoyed and content with life, but this was like a deep peace inside of me.
It was this summer that I would embark on summer school! What a life changing experience! I have many memories that I will treasure for always. I still don't really know what i actually said at the final festival, but I'm pretty sure they were not my words! The other day I was on a forum and one of the topics was 'the nicest compliment you have ever had', that night somebody gave me the nicest compliment I ever had, that person probably doesn't even realise it, but I'll never forget those words, I don't even know why they mean so much to me!
Towards the end of the year I began to lose sight of my faith, I don't know how or why, it just seemed to slip through my fingers, and I couldn't stop it, it was out of my control. Once you start to turn from God its amazing how things can just spiral out of control over time and you are in a position where its so hard to start over! Little things like swearing and having the wrong attitude towards others, once let slip are extremely hard to enforce again!
The biggest change personally for me would be meeting Aled towards the end of the year, my first serious boyfriend, we've been going out for nearly a year now, scary eh! I have learnt a lot about myself from this relationship, and the best thing about it is that even when my faith is at its lowest for some reason this relationship makes me even more determined to have God central in life, its important to me, and so I know that I need God to look after things, this relationship won't let me give up on God, every relationship needs God!
Ha I have rambled but I wanted to put some things inperspective for myself to look back on and then I can move forward. Throughout that year I can see God now, even if I don't want to! I can't deny it one bit! This year is harder for me to look back on and see God but I'm sure he is here, I hope, no, I know! (thats confusing I know) now looking to the future, which probably holds a whole load more of unexpected changes that are either gonna make me happy or tear me apart, but I'm gonna get through whatever it is, there's one aspect of God you just can't ignore and thats the love of others, thats the thing that brought me to faith the first time and I'm sure it's what's gonna get me there again. Amen to that.
Ok lets look back, this must have been what, 2-3 years ago now? Mark and Linda were officers here, I was just starting my GCSE's, Timothy had never heard of Vivian Endicott Douglas! (thats a girl he is obsessed with for those of u who dont know! - how, I dont know!) This would be before I was made a senior soldier methinks? yeah, must have been. summer school had not yet come to pass. life was quite rosy, yeah, life was good.
It was the summer of 2004 that I was made a senior soldier, I was so happy that I had made that decision, it was also my chance to really make my friends see that my faith was for real, and it was who I was not what I had been moulded into. (I still have rachel's version of my testimony!) And while on the subject of my enrollement, I still haven't seen the video a year on?!
As the year went on things were not quite as fine and dandy, but I was more and more sure of what I had said about changes 'changes happen, there is nothing we can do about them, but we don't have to go through them alone'. Later that year we found out Mark and Linda were moving on, I was gutted (you could even say thats an under-statement) But no matter how much it pained me, I knew that it was all happening for a reason, there were things that God wanted to do here at Rhyl that I didn't understand. I remember it being pentecost around the change over time, I distinctly remember feeling the holy spirit surround me, comforting me, I think that is the most safe and secure i have ever felt in my entire life, in that one moment. There are times I have felt overjoyed and content with life, but this was like a deep peace inside of me.
It was this summer that I would embark on summer school! What a life changing experience! I have many memories that I will treasure for always. I still don't really know what i actually said at the final festival, but I'm pretty sure they were not my words! The other day I was on a forum and one of the topics was 'the nicest compliment you have ever had', that night somebody gave me the nicest compliment I ever had, that person probably doesn't even realise it, but I'll never forget those words, I don't even know why they mean so much to me!
Towards the end of the year I began to lose sight of my faith, I don't know how or why, it just seemed to slip through my fingers, and I couldn't stop it, it was out of my control. Once you start to turn from God its amazing how things can just spiral out of control over time and you are in a position where its so hard to start over! Little things like swearing and having the wrong attitude towards others, once let slip are extremely hard to enforce again!
The biggest change personally for me would be meeting Aled towards the end of the year, my first serious boyfriend, we've been going out for nearly a year now, scary eh! I have learnt a lot about myself from this relationship, and the best thing about it is that even when my faith is at its lowest for some reason this relationship makes me even more determined to have God central in life, its important to me, and so I know that I need God to look after things, this relationship won't let me give up on God, every relationship needs God!
Ha I have rambled but I wanted to put some things inperspective for myself to look back on and then I can move forward. Throughout that year I can see God now, even if I don't want to! I can't deny it one bit! This year is harder for me to look back on and see God but I'm sure he is here, I hope, no, I know! (thats confusing I know) now looking to the future, which probably holds a whole load more of unexpected changes that are either gonna make me happy or tear me apart, but I'm gonna get through whatever it is, there's one aspect of God you just can't ignore and thats the love of others, thats the thing that brought me to faith the first time and I'm sure it's what's gonna get me there again. Amen to that.
Tuesday, October 11, 2005
anyone up for a heated debate?
i am so bored that me n stephen are havin a debate about cheese and pizza, infact, no, its more interesting than that, we are arguing about pizza and cheese (its most definately yuck yuck cheese, an what exactly is so great about pizza??) Im boreed!
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
I have something to say at larrrrst, have started to write something nearly everyday for the last i dunno how many days but never really had much to say. well. thats all changed! And quite frankly I wish i dint hav anything to say! I am phoneless, thats not the worst of it though! I have had my hand down a toilet, not only that, it was all for nothing because my phone decided that being in toilet water wasnt good for it, so i attempted to save its life for nothing, isnt that just fantastic.wooo.
Monday, September 05, 2005
tired!
am so tired..! I have dry built the basement of my dolls house - woo!
Friday, September 02, 2005
Tester
Friday, August 26, 2005
hope this post works?
Life's strange when you sit back an watch it go by. Been workin nearly all summer and now its nearly time to go back to skool, its gonna be wierd goin back after this break, its gonna be caos thats for sure, ooooooh dunnno why just remembered seasider!!
(oh an now cheries swanned off to italy - maybe i scare ppl out of the country? who knows! Aled you'd beter not flit off anywhere!!)
never quite got back to my blog last night, back now though! seasiders all done an dusted ready for 2moz... im bored! trying to write a food list for my party but not gettin very far.. pickled onions are a priority! (hav a dress ... its fab!)
(oh an now cheries swanned off to italy - maybe i scare ppl out of the country? who knows! Aled you'd beter not flit off anywhere!!)
never quite got back to my blog last night, back now though! seasiders all done an dusted ready for 2moz... im bored! trying to write a food list for my party but not gettin very far.. pickled onions are a priority! (hav a dress ... its fab!)
Friday, August 19, 2005
hey everyone.so whats new? well fast approaching 18 now ooh scary lol been in a car for the first time, probably forgotten everything by now but i might add i did quite well (in my humble opinion).. I am extremely tired, glad I only hav to hack ths workin lark for the summer, it'll be relaxing to go bk to school!! well maybe not quite but you know what i mean. besides might not be goin bk to school straight away anyway (school is half burnt down for those of you who don't know - which wont be many as i think i know anyone who actually bothers to read this lol). Speaking of school, got my results (AS) yesterday, didnt do too badly, completely failed maths but hey I gave up didnt really expect to do much better than fail!
Now if anyone has any information on Kate Booth (she was the person who started the army in france) I would greatly appreciate it if u could contact me (louicat@fsmail.net) need it for my french oral next year, need to start preping it, actually i need to do my french coursework which has to be in when we go bk!! anyway yeah.
uncie j n auntie di hav swanned off to switzerland (its alright for some eh!) someones jut come in, ttfn xxx
Now if anyone has any information on Kate Booth (she was the person who started the army in france) I would greatly appreciate it if u could contact me (louicat@fsmail.net) need it for my french oral next year, need to start preping it, actually i need to do my french coursework which has to be in when we go bk!! anyway yeah.
uncie j n auntie di hav swanned off to switzerland (its alright for some eh!) someones jut come in, ttfn xxx
Thursday, July 28, 2005
hey everyone check out the latest news!
Thursday, July 21, 2005
everything i am depends on u
I’v been lookin ‘til my eyes are tired of lookin.. listenin ‘til my ears r numb frm listenin.. I no that u no tht my heart is aching.. Im runnin out of tears an my will is breaking I dont tink tht I can carry the burden of it anymore
All of my hopes and my dreams an my best laid plans r slowly slippin thru my folded hands
so I’m gonna lay it down, im gonna learn to trust u now what else can I do, everything I am depends on u...
All of my hopes and my dreams an my best laid plans r slowly slippin thru my folded hands
so I’m gonna lay it down, im gonna learn to trust u now what else can I do, everything I am depends on u...
Thursday, July 14, 2005
to the one who knows what i dont know, i dont want to know anymore, you know why, cause i dont know why, that clear? good.
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
I'm bored. Too hot! (wont complain too much though or songsters might never be cancelled! - does occupy me though, have to sing to myself instead..) Done lots of work today would you believe it! Yes, really! French comprehension, oh what joyous fun! lol, nah tis not that bad, just quite hard. Haven't got my french accents on the computer anymore :( will have to get them back, else you'll never be able to have me write to you in french, dont want u missing out! did i mention its hot?!
so .... yup ....
so .... yup ....
Friday, July 08, 2005
:p
would u believe it im blogging on the move! what is the wrkd comin to eh! lol' gr8 song 4 ya: 'so i look to u,no one else wil do.. when i look into the sky above i wonder how my life has changed i wonder how ur luv it camd to me..
Thursday, July 07, 2005
Random!!
In the last week 2 random people have told me to smile!! No idea who they are, passed one in the street, the other was in a van coming from behind me (which I'm still trying to work out - how can u tell if someones smiling or not from behind?!)
Friday, July 01, 2005
forgive and forget
Was just reminded of this post - did I write this lol?! Think its very true.
Sounds so simple, and yet not quite so easy to put into practice. When somebody hurts us, or does something against us, its hard to forgive them, but to forget is even harder! However this is not the point I want to focus on.
I want us to think about the things that we do wrong and how God deals with us, and how we should respond. God's love is so great, He sent His Son for us, so that are sins could be forgiven. He loves us that much! He wants us to be free from sin, not tied and bound by guilt, but sadly we sometimes are. We are not bound because of what God has done, but by the fact that we will not let go.
God does not keep a record of all our sins, and every time we fall remind us of our past. As I have said before, when we seek God's forgivness, the slate is wiped clean, God has closed that door behind us. However it doesn't always work that way, we humans like to hold onto guilt for some strange reason! We keep reminding ourselves of what happened previously and we get dragged down with shame of our past sins. But God doesn't want that! He has put it behind Him, He loves us, and wants us to be free, He wants us to forget about it too! We have to learnt to move on, forget what happened in the past. We musn't beat ourselves up if we feel we are heading down a road we've already travelled, we need to recognise it and get back on the straight path. We need to keep our eyes fixed on Jesus, we can't do that if we turn our heads to look back can we?!
Sounds so simple, and yet not quite so easy to put into practice. When somebody hurts us, or does something against us, its hard to forgive them, but to forget is even harder! However this is not the point I want to focus on.
I want us to think about the things that we do wrong and how God deals with us, and how we should respond. God's love is so great, He sent His Son for us, so that are sins could be forgiven. He loves us that much! He wants us to be free from sin, not tied and bound by guilt, but sadly we sometimes are. We are not bound because of what God has done, but by the fact that we will not let go.
God does not keep a record of all our sins, and every time we fall remind us of our past. As I have said before, when we seek God's forgivness, the slate is wiped clean, God has closed that door behind us. However it doesn't always work that way, we humans like to hold onto guilt for some strange reason! We keep reminding ourselves of what happened previously and we get dragged down with shame of our past sins. But God doesn't want that! He has put it behind Him, He loves us, and wants us to be free, He wants us to forget about it too! We have to learnt to move on, forget what happened in the past. We musn't beat ourselves up if we feel we are heading down a road we've already travelled, we need to recognise it and get back on the straight path. We need to keep our eyes fixed on Jesus, we can't do that if we turn our heads to look back can we?!
Wednesday, June 29, 2005
ooh get me!
I had an email from the salvation army in france haha!
Tuesday, June 28, 2005
i dont no me anymore somebody tell me why
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
life - the way we like it
We have set ways in life and I don't think we even realise we have such ways until we see something which we can't get our heads around. Let me explain: different countries have different cultures and do some things in a completely different way to the way we do things, and we find it quite bizzare but infact its perfectly normal to the other country.
Have been thinking about this a lot. I'm studying french at the moment and we are learning about french culture as well as the language side of things, its really fascinating. Also Kana has been with us for a year now, (for those of you who don't know - she's a japanese student who has been studying here for a year now - leaving on wednesday - gonna miss ya kana!) Some of the things she's eaten I find really wierd and erm.. interesting! But to her its completely normal, and thats just so wierd. French names, Japanese names, German names, are all so different to the names we are used to hearing but thats just cause we're accustomed to those names, its the norm to us.
I just think we are living in confined worlds within our own countries. I percieve the world through through the eyes of my countries traditions, anything other than that I consider to be abnormal but its not at all! I think especially with us living in a country which speaks such a wide spread language, we take for granted the fact that there are so many differnt languages in the world - its so fascinating - well to me it is anyway!! It just amazes me that we are all part of the human race, but we are all sooooo different.
Anyway thought I'd share that with you! lol! haven't gone on about anything for a while so yup this is my contribution to you. thankyou for reading my faithful blog followers.
Have been thinking about this a lot. I'm studying french at the moment and we are learning about french culture as well as the language side of things, its really fascinating. Also Kana has been with us for a year now, (for those of you who don't know - she's a japanese student who has been studying here for a year now - leaving on wednesday - gonna miss ya kana!) Some of the things she's eaten I find really wierd and erm.. interesting! But to her its completely normal, and thats just so wierd. French names, Japanese names, German names, are all so different to the names we are used to hearing but thats just cause we're accustomed to those names, its the norm to us.
I just think we are living in confined worlds within our own countries. I percieve the world through through the eyes of my countries traditions, anything other than that I consider to be abnormal but its not at all! I think especially with us living in a country which speaks such a wide spread language, we take for granted the fact that there are so many differnt languages in the world - its so fascinating - well to me it is anyway!! It just amazes me that we are all part of the human race, but we are all sooooo different.
Anyway thought I'd share that with you! lol! haven't gone on about anything for a while so yup this is my contribution to you. thankyou for reading my faithful blog followers.
Friday, June 17, 2005
hey one an all im a yoyo!! teehee - thats so cheezy but i love it!
Thursday, June 09, 2005
I've got to tell you
Found this on a forum - don't know who wrote it but its so true:
Its been a little while
Since I sat and gave a smile
And spent a little time with You
Theres been too many days
Since the last time I could say
Id held a conversation with You
Is that good enough for me
And could I stand it another day
I really dont think its a question thats worth answering
Coz I need You more every day
How could I get by a moment without You
How could I forget to tell You
How much You mean to me
Ive just gotta tell You
Youre my everything
All these times when I ignore
All those days of long before
When I couldnt breathe another breath alone
And those nights when I would cry
Asking everybody why
And never saying a word outloud
Is it good enough for me
And could I live without a King
I really dont think thats a question worth answering
Coz I need You more every day
How could I get by a moment without You
How could I forget to tell You
How much You mean to me
Ive just gotta tell You Youre my everything
Ive got to tell You
Ive got to tell You
Ive got to tell You....
Its been a little while
Since I sat and gave a smile
And spent a little time with You
Theres been too many days
Since the last time I could say
Id held a conversation with You
Is that good enough for me
And could I stand it another day
I really dont think its a question thats worth answering
Coz I need You more every day
How could I get by a moment without You
How could I forget to tell You
How much You mean to me
Ive just gotta tell You
Youre my everything
All these times when I ignore
All those days of long before
When I couldnt breathe another breath alone
And those nights when I would cry
Asking everybody why
And never saying a word outloud
Is it good enough for me
And could I live without a King
I really dont think thats a question worth answering
Coz I need You more every day
How could I get by a moment without You
How could I forget to tell You
How much You mean to me
Ive just gotta tell You Youre my everything
Ive got to tell You
Ive got to tell You
Ive got to tell You....
Friday, June 03, 2005
oh my giddy aunt!
im at t'army woo
this is a post for me
this is just to remind me to remember last night - dont ask!
posted something on here but it didnt post - just reminding myself
posted something on here but it didnt post - just reminding myself
Monday, May 30, 2005
mobile blog!
im on my mob writin this technology eh! hope this works.. x
Thursday, May 26, 2005
boo!
Tuesday, May 24, 2005
onehundredhours - stronger then my heart
God's love is stronger than our hearts..
'can i bring my doubt to youand still find all my hope in you?can i bring my passion and my pain?'
'from the darkest place, the deepest painwhere the tears fall down like rainwe will call to you'
'if im honest with youand say just what i meani dont always mean everything i say''wash us in the river again'
'when we cant find you, or see your facewhen we've used up all our faithwill you rescue us from ourselvesand carry us to grace?'
'cause sometimes i fall and i failand life tears me apartbut you are still hereand you lift me from the rubble of my heart'
'you're so close even when im far away''is there still a chance that i have a prayer?something inside me knows you're therewhat will you do, what will you say?i just dont know, i cannot seehelp me trust in your great love for me'
'make me okay'
'for i am so blind, but i want to seemy faith is so tired, but i want to believe'
'i still believe in love, yes i doi will believe in love'
Monday, May 23, 2005
people do read my blog yay!
lol.
I wonder if the blog will stop workin if I write much more.. cant believe how much I'v written!!
You really should look at these posts - what was I on about?!
http://sarhyl.blogspot.com/2004/11/slip-ups.html
http://sarhyl.blogspot.com/2004/09/greetings.html
http://sarhyl.blogspot.com/2005/01/did-i-beat-u-here.html
http://sarhyl.blogspot.com/2004/07/huh.html
http://sarhyl.blogspot.com/2004/06/rain-rain-go-away-come-again-another.html
haha I'm not mad!!
can u see some reputition here?!
http://sarhyl.blogspot.com/2004/10/chaos.html
http://sarhyl.blogspot.com/2005/04/i-have-come-to-you-in-search-of-faith.html
I wonder if the blog will stop workin if I write much more.. cant believe how much I'v written!!
You really should look at these posts - what was I on about?!
http://sarhyl.blogspot.com/2004/11/slip-ups.html
http://sarhyl.blogspot.com/2004/09/greetings.html
http://sarhyl.blogspot.com/2005/01/did-i-beat-u-here.html
http://sarhyl.blogspot.com/2004/07/huh.html
http://sarhyl.blogspot.com/2004/06/rain-rain-go-away-come-again-another.html
haha I'm not mad!!
can u see some reputition here?!
http://sarhyl.blogspot.com/2004/10/chaos.html
http://sarhyl.blogspot.com/2005/04/i-have-come-to-you-in-search-of-faith.html
Thursday, May 19, 2005
I'm in His hands, I'm in his hands, whatever the future holds, I'm in His hands
The days I cannot see, have all been planned for me, His way is best, you see, I'm in His hands
The days I cannot see, have all been planned for me, His way is best, you see, I'm in His hands
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
Dont' you just wish you could control your mind??
Saturday, May 14, 2005
Soar
When they push when they pull, tell me can you hold on
When they say you should change can you lift your head high and stay strong
Will you give up, give in, when your heart's crying out thats it's wrong
Will you love for you at the end of it all
In life, there's gonna be times when you're feeling low
And in your mind insecurity seems to take control
We start to look outside ourselves for acceptance and approval
We keep forgettin' that the only thing we should know is:
Don't be scared to fly alone, find a path that is your own
Love will open every door it's in your hands, the world is yours
Don't hold back and always know, all the answers will unfold
What are you waiting for, spread your wings and soar
The boy who wonders is he good enough for them
Keeps tryin' to please 'em all but he just never seems to fit in
Then there's the girl who thinks she'll never be good enough for him
keeps tryin' to change and that's a game she'll never win
Now in life there's gonna be times when you're feeling low
And in your mind insecurity seems to take control
We start to look outside ourselves for acceptance and approval
We keep forgettin' that the only thing we should know is:
Don't be scared to fly alone, find a path that is your own
Love will open every door it's in your hands, the world is yours
Don't hold back and always know, all the answers will unfold
What are you waiting for, spread your wings and soar
In the mirror is where she comes face to face with her fears
Her own reflection, now foreign to her after all these years
All of her life she has tried to be something besides herself
Now time has passed and she's ended up someone else with regret
Don't be scared to fly alone, find a path that is your own
Love will open every door it's in your hands, the world is yours
Don't hold back and always know, all the answers will unfold
What are you waiting for, spread your wings and soar
This is a song by Christina Aguilera, Its great music but think the words are really good too.
When they say you should change can you lift your head high and stay strong
Will you give up, give in, when your heart's crying out thats it's wrong
Will you love for you at the end of it all
In life, there's gonna be times when you're feeling low
And in your mind insecurity seems to take control
We start to look outside ourselves for acceptance and approval
We keep forgettin' that the only thing we should know is:
Don't be scared to fly alone, find a path that is your own
Love will open every door it's in your hands, the world is yours
Don't hold back and always know, all the answers will unfold
What are you waiting for, spread your wings and soar
The boy who wonders is he good enough for them
Keeps tryin' to please 'em all but he just never seems to fit in
Then there's the girl who thinks she'll never be good enough for him
keeps tryin' to change and that's a game she'll never win
Now in life there's gonna be times when you're feeling low
And in your mind insecurity seems to take control
We start to look outside ourselves for acceptance and approval
We keep forgettin' that the only thing we should know is:
Don't be scared to fly alone, find a path that is your own
Love will open every door it's in your hands, the world is yours
Don't hold back and always know, all the answers will unfold
What are you waiting for, spread your wings and soar
In the mirror is where she comes face to face with her fears
Her own reflection, now foreign to her after all these years
All of her life she has tried to be something besides herself
Now time has passed and she's ended up someone else with regret
Don't be scared to fly alone, find a path that is your own
Love will open every door it's in your hands, the world is yours
Don't hold back and always know, all the answers will unfold
What are you waiting for, spread your wings and soar
This is a song by Christina Aguilera, Its great music but think the words are really good too.
Thursday, May 05, 2005
Moi and Matt from electralyte
Wednesday, May 04, 2005
Me and Tré (lead singer from OneHundredHours) woo!
Its been over a year now since I was enrolled as a senior soldier. I remember the occassion well (even the pooping off of my top button on my jacket!) I was so happy that day. I also remember the very songs we sang and one of those songs we sang at roots on the Sunday (exactly a year later) 'Lord Reign in me'
A year on and I couldn't feel more differently. I was so excited then, ready and raring to go, I put all my trust in God. I wasn't afraid, or unsure, I just knew that God would take care of me and guide me. Its harder now. I'm struggling to find God. I know he's there 'cause I've felt Him, my past won't let me forget what he's done for me, but its like one long battle with my stubborn mind.
When I sang that song a year ago, it was a song of freedom, I was free in Christ's love, ready to go and do whatever! I sang it happily knowing that the Lord would Reign in me. A year on and that song has a whole new meaning. I sing it out of desperation for my God. 'Lord Reign in me, Reign in your power, Over all my dreams, In my darkest hour, You are the Lord, Of all I am, So won't you reign in me again' I want the Lord to reign in me like he has done before. I need Him, but I'm struggling to understand why God isn't meeting my need. I need him, I want him, I believe he can meet that need so why doesn't he?!
Maybe just maybe this is a test of my faith, and if so don't you think I've been tested long enough. I haven't given up even though I've wanted to, I'm still here now fighting all this, isn't it time I got some answers?! I'm scared what the future holds because I can't see God there right now. The excitements gone, I just see a desperate world that I don't believe I can help, its all too daunting. Trying to follow God is tough, I've discovered that now, so what hope does that give me?? If I can't understand what God wants how do I do what God wants?! I need some answers!!!
A year on and I couldn't feel more differently. I was so excited then, ready and raring to go, I put all my trust in God. I wasn't afraid, or unsure, I just knew that God would take care of me and guide me. Its harder now. I'm struggling to find God. I know he's there 'cause I've felt Him, my past won't let me forget what he's done for me, but its like one long battle with my stubborn mind.
When I sang that song a year ago, it was a song of freedom, I was free in Christ's love, ready to go and do whatever! I sang it happily knowing that the Lord would Reign in me. A year on and that song has a whole new meaning. I sing it out of desperation for my God. 'Lord Reign in me, Reign in your power, Over all my dreams, In my darkest hour, You are the Lord, Of all I am, So won't you reign in me again' I want the Lord to reign in me like he has done before. I need Him, but I'm struggling to understand why God isn't meeting my need. I need him, I want him, I believe he can meet that need so why doesn't he?!
Maybe just maybe this is a test of my faith, and if so don't you think I've been tested long enough. I haven't given up even though I've wanted to, I'm still here now fighting all this, isn't it time I got some answers?! I'm scared what the future holds because I can't see God there right now. The excitements gone, I just see a desperate world that I don't believe I can help, its all too daunting. Trying to follow God is tough, I've discovered that now, so what hope does that give me?? If I can't understand what God wants how do I do what God wants?! I need some answers!!!
Tuesday, May 03, 2005
ROOTS 2005
Just goin to songsters in a mo, so just let you know there's a new blog! Tri-Ni-Ty! the links at the side of page.. write soon xx
Friday, April 29, 2005
louicat live from roots 2005!! avec j + di!
hello we are here.. yeah.. been to big top heard russell rookness and did some singing la la la.. loads of ppl everywhere.. bought a bendy yellow man will show u soon!! report bk soon .. ttfn xxx
Roots!
Tis here, and its come around quite fast!! So I'll see you all in a few days time!!
Tuesday, April 26, 2005
Tuesday, October 12, 2004
chaos
...and I have come to you in search of faith 'cause I can't see beyond this place, Oh you are God, and I am man, so I leave it in your hands...
I am in shock !!!!! there's an ice cream van in our street!!!! We NEVER got an ice cream van anywhere near us!!
chaos
...and I have come to you in search of faith 'cause I can't see beyond this place, Oh you are God, and I am man, so I leave it in your hands...
I am in shock !!!!! there's an ice cream van in our street!!!! We NEVER got an ice cream van anywhere near us!!
I have come to you in search of faith cause I cant see beyond this place. 
Saturday, April 23, 2005
Daniel - makes it around the hall.. just!!
Tim's enrollement - Daniel, Tim and Moi.
Friday, April 22, 2005
Forth coming events
ROOTS! 29th April - 2nd May check out http://www.rootsonline.org/uk/
The congress is coming up soon, sometime in June.. will find out..
Erm.. not sure what else.. oh there's worship explosion not ure when that be's..
lol this post wasnt very informative..
thats all for now but will try and get soem pics up to go with some stuff!
The congress is coming up soon, sometime in June.. will find out..
Erm.. not sure what else.. oh there's worship explosion not ure when that be's..
lol this post wasnt very informative..
thats all for now but will try and get soem pics up to go with some stuff!
Church Activities
Not sure about all these but will get the seasider later..
Monday something happens..
Tuesday is Band n Songster practices.
Wednesday is a day and more than likely something happens..
Thursday is erm.. wotsit..
Friday (I know this one!) Tis ONEWAY our new kids club. After a fall in attendance on a sunday for the children we decided it was time to try something new to bring the young people in, ONEWAY was the result of this. (might put this bit in the news bit) Tis 6 - 7:30pm. Please come along if you are between the ages of erm.. I'll find out I can't remember exactly but its something like 7 - 11 yrs? If you know anyone who's got nothing to do on a friday night bring em along!
Saturday is.. Saturday..
Sunday is worship 10:30am and 6pm - all our welcome! Tis fab - should come along some time!
Monday something happens..
Tuesday is Band n Songster practices.
Wednesday is a day and more than likely something happens..
Thursday is erm.. wotsit..
Friday (I know this one!) Tis ONEWAY our new kids club. After a fall in attendance on a sunday for the children we decided it was time to try something new to bring the young people in, ONEWAY was the result of this. (might put this bit in the news bit) Tis 6 - 7:30pm. Please come along if you are between the ages of erm.. I'll find out I can't remember exactly but its something like 7 - 11 yrs? If you know anyone who's got nothing to do on a friday night bring em along!
Saturday is.. Saturday..
Sunday is worship 10:30am and 6pm - all our welcome! Tis fab - should come along some time!
Latest News Update!!
Ok so the news is a little behind.. my enrollement will have been a year ago the sunday we are at roots!
10th April: Tim's enrollement as a Junior soldier. All the Junior Soldiers marched in behind the flag (which Daniel managed to carry all the way around the hall without knocking anyone's head off!!) They all publically renewed their promises, and those who had made those promises in the past had the chance to renew theirs too. It was nice to see Tim make this new commitment, and we pray that we will keep that for the rest of his life.
April: Janet got a suprise when Brian became out newest adherent (spelling?) Brain (last name..?) has been with us for quite a while now.. not sure how long.. will ask Brain.. no I mean Brian!! Will find out a bit more and get some pics for you!
March/April: Janet was officially made our new Corp Secatary (really cant spell that!) Assistant.
My memory doesn't go much futher back than that..hang on.. will get back to you..
10th April: Tim's enrollement as a Junior soldier. All the Junior Soldiers marched in behind the flag (which Daniel managed to carry all the way around the hall without knocking anyone's head off!!) They all publically renewed their promises, and those who had made those promises in the past had the chance to renew theirs too. It was nice to see Tim make this new commitment, and we pray that we will keep that for the rest of his life.
April: Janet got a suprise when Brian became out newest adherent (spelling?) Brain (last name..?) has been with us for quite a while now.. not sure how long.. will ask Brain.. no I mean Brian!! Will find out a bit more and get some pics for you!
March/April: Janet was officially made our new Corp Secatary (really cant spell that!) Assistant.
My memory doesn't go much futher back than that..hang on.. will get back to you..
I'm at skool.. I haven't actually got that much work to do, I'm having a break anyway, done too much french this last week! Got double business after break, teachers are gettin a bit stressed out cause we've only got 3 weeks left in skool, I an on the other hand am pretty 'chilled' (wonder who uses that word a lot..) at the mo. Usually we'd only hav one lesson on a friday and he'd send us off in the second with some hw, but he's panicing lol.
So what to write.. it is exactly one week til ROOTS today! Yay! Need to start planning what I need to take:
List A: the essentials
List B: the extras
List C: the things that I don't really need to take which take up room which I could maybe leave behind if no room..
I need to find a bag - lol the most important thing and I forget it!
This computer is sooo slow!
So what else, well after roots its exams (for a change) two lots of exams in one year is just too much! And then its the same again next year!
Tis Aled' s B*day on Sunday.. teeeheee.. just you wait an see what I gots you! (hve fun at bala!)
Reminder: trains
There's the bell for end of lesson one.. another one to go lol.
I have made a new friend everyone! Don't know what his name is though.. but hey I like to think we are friends! He alwayssays hi to moi.. but I think he says hi to everyone in the world but hey!
ok I'm just rambling now so Im gonna stop.. just have to find something else to amuse myself with.. sighs..
So what to write.. it is exactly one week til ROOTS today! Yay! Need to start planning what I need to take:
List A: the essentials
List B: the extras
List C: the things that I don't really need to take which take up room which I could maybe leave behind if no room..
I need to find a bag - lol the most important thing and I forget it!
This computer is sooo slow!
So what else, well after roots its exams (for a change) two lots of exams in one year is just too much! And then its the same again next year!
Tis Aled' s B*day on Sunday.. teeeheee.. just you wait an see what I gots you! (hve fun at bala!)
Reminder: trains
There's the bell for end of lesson one.. another one to go lol.
I have made a new friend everyone! Don't know what his name is though.. but hey I like to think we are friends! He alwayssays hi to moi.. but I think he says hi to everyone in the world but hey!
ok I'm just rambling now so Im gonna stop.. just have to find something else to amuse myself with.. sighs..
